start enjoying it before it's too late

I have spent the last 4 and a half years dealing with the pain left over after a three level fusion of the neck. I am on high levels of opiates and each time they raise the dosage I become tolerant of it and the pain returns with a vengence. I want to start enjoying life instead of not doing anything because of the pain. I rarely leave my home or go anywhere out of town because of it. My whole existance is centered around pain. My standards of housekeeping, curb appeal, and personal “look” have all suffered from this thing. I’m addicted to Oxycontin even though it no longer helps.
I want to enjoy it before it’s too late.