be pretty

Growing up in a critical household I have always been very judgemental of my appearance. I was always told that I needed to look a certain way to be beautiful and I tried…I really did…but I can’t be someone I’m not. About a year ago I was diagnosed with something called PCOS and one of the side effects for me was weight gain. To have someone I love look at me and call me disgusting brought my self confidence to an all time low.

I decided to take control and I have lost all the weight I had gained and I have stayed on a healthy diet recommended for women with PCOS. I don’t want to be a miserable beauty queen anymore…I want to be confident and healthy. I think I will always struggle with this because I had been raised to think a certain way about beauty for so long…but I am trying…baby steps are always a good start.

Being considered attractive is something international in girl world. Well lets face it…not every girl looks the same. I have struggled with being comfortable in my own skin for years and I am tired of looking at fashion magazine models for answers. It’s time for me to look the way I want and ignore the judgemental people who want me to be someone I’m not. I am 5’1, an hourglass figure…not a bean pole, my face has a few scars but thats ok…they are small and only noticable without make-up…if you dont like breasts or butts then I am not the girl for you. More than anything I just want to feel like I am putting MY best face forward…