Ive been trying to do this for quite some time now, and can i just say its no easy feat!! EVEYONE judges people its basic human instinct but its hard to tell yourself when to stop sometimes!! I actually think im taking it wayyyy to far now not just with people but with past experiences too most people get over things after a week at most im literally still thinking about things i did last year and the year before and still cringing. The annoying thing is if i actually thought about it logicly i know no one else REALLY cares about the stupid or embarresing things ive done in my past they have all more then likely forgotten about them but somehow i cant seem to convince myself that its actually true!! Its really irritating knowing what your thinking is rediculious and sometyms quite harmfull to myself. but its impossible to stop thinking. And you really cant control what it is your thinking about at any time the most random thing could pop into your head sometimes its good or slightly embarresing when your sitting on the bus on your own an somthing hillarious that happened suddenly comes to mind and you cant help but laugh. but then other time when your on your own and you remember the not so good times UGH!! im doing it now!! noone even cared and yet i think its a HUGE deal… AAARRRGGGHH!!!
“there must be some way of geting out of here…”
I sound depressed… humph..
