reach my ideal weight

I was doing so well when I added this goal. Since then, I’ve been on birth control and two different antidepressants. My eating habits haven’t changed much, but I’ve gained almost thirty pounds. I haven’t felt this ugly in years.

Consciously I know that I’m only a little above an average weight… But I was so close… And it’s mostly just stupid medication that’s pushed me back this far.

I’m going to try getting in more cardio workouts. I’m good at keeping up with non-cardio exercise, but it isn’t nearly as helpful for weight loss. I eat pretty healthily already, I never get near 2000 calories or 65 grams of fat.
I’m not giving up. Giving up on this one is a hundred times worse than anything I need endure to succeed.

I don’t know what my ideal weight is. BMI suggests anywhere from 120 pounds to 160 pounds. I think 135 would be ideal. I’m currently up to 182 (from 152 in April 2007).

This is a bit random, but I adore concert-going. It’s an ego boost, really… To see all of the morbidly obese girls in minute clothing… I don’t feel so revolting in comparison =].

I’m at 157, which is a new low.
By one pound. XD

It’s “healthy” by government standards.
But I want to be pretty. By my standards.
I’d like to be 125, but I could deal with 130-140. I guess the supposed perfect weight for a 5’7” female is 136?
shrug
I’m getting there. Slowly. But I am =].