stop pretending I'm worth something

I just don’t understand what they see. =/
I feel like I’m getting mixed messages, but the cues are pretty clear from him, it’s my own self-doubt that’s confusing me.
He won’t let me deny compliments, at least not in a subtle way. How many times can you distract a person from a compliment before they realize what you’re doing?
I’m not worth a person like him.
It’s hard to convince myself of that, though. I consciously know it shouldn’t go any further; it’s entirely something else to maintain a formal distance.
I still haven’t figured out how to kill the selfish child inside of me. I don’t know how to stop wanting to be with him.
It’s so narcissistic to think he might actually accept me. Why can’t he just see me for an ugly loser and have the confidence to go for a good person? =[

I suppose this goal ties in with “stop hurting people.”