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Dreamt last night 2 years ago

That I was an autistic little girl who was in love with one of two twins. I suppose I was attempting to figure out why I loved one but not the other. It was mostly an action dream, though… We were trying to escape from someone. People were going missing. We accidentally entered a “forbidden” room, a room that was inhabited by a boy we knew was dangerous, who didn’t like people bothering him… But we escaped.

Later in the dream I had grown up some, to around my current age (18), presumably. I had a brother who had died, but he was a rather introverted person, so there wasn’t a lot of memorabilia left from him. I went into his old room and looked through what was left, which was a few newspapers and some art awards. Then my other brother (one that I actually have in this life) explained to me that my brother didn’t die accidentally… my mother killed him. She drugged him, wrapped him in a tarp, duct taped it, and rolled him into the lake. But she left her mark… she left her insignia on one of his teeth. At that point I realize that she HAS been trying to kill me… I dump out my untouched cup of water and her insignia lies in the bottom.

So I run out to my car, and she screams that I’m finally running away, but I reply with annoyance that I’ll be back soon, I’m just going to the gas station (which I was, in the dream).

o_O

I don’t understand why my brother and father were who they were supposed to be, but my mother and the dead brother are entirely fabricated.



Two separate dreams? (LONG!!) 2 years ago

The first one had to do with my family… All of my family. It was an alternate reality, I suppose, where everyone had a sort of pet that was important to their functionality… Sort of like daemons in the “His Dark Materials” series by Philip Pullman, except that you weren’t born with them, you could buy them. I was on vacation somewhere northwest of Missouri, in a semi-large but secluded town with a lot of forest… And I was having the worst vacation of my life XD. I don’t remember precisely what made it so bad, but everything was going wrong. Part of the horror was that the animals were acting rabid. They’d be alright for a while, but then they’d attack you or someone around you, and the only way to stop them was to break every bone in their body. Suffice to say it was a graphic dream. There was some bit where I went out to dinner with my father, brother, and sister, but as I walked into the restaurant, some animal set it on fire or the like… So people were screaming and some were trying to kill it. I know I killed at least three of these in my dream, and there were parts of animals scattered everywhere (I killed a snake and a cat, and a calf as well I suppose, and saw a dear in a parking lot being destroyed). I suppose I figured out somewhere in my dream that the company who was distributing animals was giving them experimental products that turned them raucous. Anyway, I got in touch with the rest of my family, but my mother was missing, so we had to drive around looking for her (which was frightening particularly for the ghost in the rearview mirror that you couldn’t see with just your eyes). Eventually we split up to look harder and I went back to the hotel to find her. Part of what made the vacation so bad was that I’d lost my hotel key AND my cell phone, so I asked around at the front desk, to no avail. I snuck upstairs to check our room. She wasn’t there, but I became side-tracked when I found a boy whom I’d met before playing the wii. I went to his house and his mother was being super nice to me. The first time I went there she made me a sandwich, and the next time she was asking to brush my hair… I don’t remember the significance, but yeh. After a bit we met up with my mum, but I haven’t a clue what happened to my sister or father, they sort of disappeared from my dream. This time, however, it was as though we had moved to this new place, into a home that had been in our family for over a century. My brother left me a note, just before disappearing, telling me I had to plug in this computer that had been in the house and play through the game on it, but I had to finish before dawn; it would tell me the “family secret” but it was dangerous knowledge. It was a bit like playing Zelda. I figured out that my brother hadn’t been alive for years, that he was a sort of ghost… My uncles were also ghosts, and I was going to become one very, very soon if I couldn’t defeat the ghost of my great great great great grandmother. I guess at some point she had invented an antibiotic cream, but it had never gone through testing like products nowadays have to go through. Apparently, whenever it was used, it killed the person and brought them back as a ghost/apparition/consciousness. My mother had used it on my brother when he was a toddler, hence the death; my grandmother had as well, on her sons. It was actually rather tragic… So we dueled my great grandmother, each of us, with a sort of trivia game (which I was surprisingly horrid at). There wasn’t really an end to the dream… It ended in battle.

The next dream was set in my home, but with a few alterations that entirely changed the scene. It was a Harry Potter-esque dream o_O. Voldemort had been married and had two children before promptly disappearing after the second’s birth. His disappearance was somehow attributed to his wife… He returned as his daughter was about six years old to find out a bit of information. Along here, parts of the dream were sort of mapped out in words; there are particular phrases that ran through my head… As he snuck in through the back door, he found his daughter and-washed her hair with a different shampoo than she was supposed to use o_O. The family generally used lavendar shampoo, but when the wife/mother found her daughter as dawn struck, she could smell the apple shampoo on her hair, hence alerting her that Voldemort had been around and setting her on edge. He returned after a few days, and lured his daughter out toward the forest, asking her questions. There was something about why his wife’s eyes were so large, and why he looked so much like her… He was afraid he had somehow linked magic with his wife, that destroying her would consequently destroy him. As he climbed the limbs of huge trees in the forest, his daughter followed, reaching heights that could kill her from the drop. She told him (in that oh-so-cute innocent little kid voice) that no, he hadn’t absorbed her mother’s power – her mother was ten years younger than Voldemort and had learned so much from him that her power looked like his, that she looked like him. As the girl started to climb onto a near-broken branch, Voldemort felt a paternal wave of panic and told her not to, to climb back down safely (aww). As her mother, driven mad with worry, rushed outside yelling for her daughter, Voldemort disappeared around the side of the house – but not before his son (who I suppose was around eight) caught sight of him. I haven’t a clue what significance the shampoo has, but he ended up rushing away from the scene before he could grab it. The son hurried around back and told his mother about the person, said “I think it was him,” and ran toward her. By this point the wife was in tears with fright, gathering her daughter toward her and “accio”-ing the shampoo to take it, screaming for her son to hurry toward her. I don’t know what I was in the dream (certainly not a child, and Voldemort couldn’t see me), but I latched onto the mother’s arm and caught the bottle of shampoo. As soon as her son was within reach, she apparated (with all three of us) to the place she thought least likely to be found by Voldemort – his home. The only physical details I remember were the black (everything, from the house to the car, was black), and the humongous house. It was dark, also; odd, since we had left at dawn from wherever we were. We walked around the sides of the house, trying doors and windows, and as we got around back we realized that the second story windows were open and floated up (how did we do that?) to crawl in them. The first thing we noticed was the feast – there were tables of food set out in every room, steaming hot and delicious-looking. I was on edge, telling the wife/mother to be careful, since it was obvious we were expected, but for some reason we stayed, wandering around from room to room, nibbling at the food. Eventually more people began to show up, gathering plates of food and seating themselves at tables. I had a plateful of fruits and vegetables with a tad bit of the main course (I suppose my subconscious remembered my eating habits XD), and was able to get a good seat, but I returned to pick up some strawberries and celery, and when I got back, there was a little boy with thick glasses seated at my place, looking out of his element. I politely informed him that I’d been sitting there and he paled a bit, looking around at the full tables, and asked if he could share a spot with me. I told him that would be a bit awkward, but a spot had opened up further down our table, so he leapt for it. My neighbors (a man and a woman) thanked me, saying they didn’t want to be seated next to someone of such low status (how rude!). I asked, somewhat reluctantly, what the feast was for, mentioning that we’d been informed of it rather abruptly. The woman explained that it was to celebrate the return of Voldemort, of course – at which point I heard a blare of death metal, turned to look at where it was coming from, and woke up to find Opeth playing.

I don’t understand how these were so detailed! My dreams aren’t usually so long… and when they are, I don’t generally remember them so well o_O.



Random points from last night's dream: 2 years ago

- got married—to someone I barely knew
- found a snake whilst digging in the yard. Except that it was a humongous snake! At least three times the size of a person.
- Worked to find out who really killed JFK, which had something to do with champaigne glasses at a wedding…
- A friend accidentally destroyed a precious piece of art by bleeding on it; tried to clean it off and cover it up (which worked until she drew on it with crayon)

And the night before?

- Went to Mexico, stole someone I love, and brought him back =]
- Fought a WWI-type war… In which I was important, but I can’t remember why, nor what we were fighting over
- Something to do with a school… Something…

The only real point where the dreams were similar was in the dark theme/colors. All of the random tidbits had the same feel to them, the same atmosphere…
=/ I need a better dream interpretation book.



Untitled 2 years ago

I’m having random, pointless dreams about people I know. I never used to dream about real people, so it’s a bit of a change for me. Mikka was in one dream, M’randa, and Zen in the other. I think Mikka and I were in a hotel room? Haha, it wasn’t a sex dream, but I think it has something to do with loving her. The Miranda and Zen dream was more random; it had to do with old nicknames (Zen’s real name is Nathan, I was reminding them why we called him Zen…). That one was more centered around how long it’s been since I’ve spoken to any of my Academy kids. I think my subconscious is feeling a tad nostalgic =]. But there’s no reason for it to have been staged in a public restroom XD.



Slept for quite a while yesterday 2 years ago

and had some pretty long dreams because of it =].
The first one had something to do with a tornado, but not a classic one; it was just enough of a pull that it would pick you up for a bit. Dreamed that I was inside my house, waiting for it to pass over, but that I really wanted to be inside the thing. For some reason it seemed ethereal, majestic, instead of dangerous.

The next dream had something to do with a war? It was from the viewpoint of a giant, haha. He needed to get through to the mountains across the lake/ocean thing, but the ocean was filled with sharks at the top level. So he plummeted himself down to the bottom level, where the sharks wouldn’t go because it was too hot, and made it through to the other side by drinking air out of bottles along the sea bed. There were also precious gems and the like, but he wasn’t concerned with those. At the other end, before he could resurface, he had to entertain a girl who lived at the bottom, who couldn’t have been older than 8 or 9… She offered air to drink and the like, but eventually she laughed at him and he realized that her entire room was filled with oxygen and he simply hadn’t noticed because he hadn’t been expecting it.



Had a dream 2 years ago

That a friend had dyed his hair black, but when I mentioned it to him, he gave me a weird look and said it had always been black…

o_O
I take it this isn’t the sort of dream that has subconscious meaning?



Untitled 2 years ago

Instead of my mother leaving to go back to Kentucky, she was already there and I was driving out to visit her. On the way, I found my friend Leland, so he decided to ride with me. (Leland moved away a few weeks ago, but we hadn’t known each other for long and weren’t close anyway, so I haven’t a clue why I’d dream of him.) Somewhere along the way, the traffic stagnated, and we decided instead of waiting we’d simply pull into a shop that his relatives apparently owned. While he talked to family, I watched out the window as the Six Flags rides across the street twisted and spun… Until a roller coaster decided to derail… It was one of those slinky coasters that stops at the high point of the track and has enough gravitational speed to make it all the way back to the start of the track, but in the dream it never stopped, it just flew off the end.
Then I glanced at the road, where traffic had built up even more, and thought “I’m never going to make it out of here.”
=/



Untitled 2 years ago

I dreamt last night that I had to pay my college tuition, but the admissions office was in Walmart. I got there too late, and was horrified to find that there was no soda… anywhere… it was all minute maid and powerade. So I went to the front counter empty-handed, only to find my old friend Ian working there. He said he worked retail now, since Crowder kicked him off campus for smoking pot… o_O

Night before last I dreamt my friend Cameron was trying to break into my room to shoot me (which seemed normal in the dream). I locked him out, but he beat the walls enough to break a few holes. As soon as he caught sight of me through one of them, he shot me in the stomach twice. I yelled at him, saying he should shoot me in the head instead, and redirected the gun to my temple… But it clicked. And clicked. And clicked. All 4 other bullets failed. I pulled up my shirt to look at my wounds, but it was like he shot steel—the skin was red and swollen, but the bullets were only lodged a bit into my skin; surface wounds.

I think my subconscious is feeling suicidal and invincible =/.



Untitled 2 years ago

Last night I dreamed I was cleaning out a fish tank. Instead of putting the fish in clean water, I held him while cleaning everything else. Eventually I realized he couldn’t breathe, so I stuck him under the faucet, but it was too late: he turned into a hollow bit of plastic and filled with water, moments later bursting like an overfilled water balloon.

There was also something of a nightclub and the mafia, but I don’t remember those bits; the fish stuck out vividly.



Untitled 3 years ago

Haphazard and discollected as my dreams are, this seems like an interesting goal =].



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