become closer to my mom

She hates me.
She calls me emo.
She mocks my problems.
She makes fun of me.
She makes me cry.
She hurts me emotionally.
She takes everything out on me.

Its all in HER. ITS ALL HER PROBLEMS.

Me and my Mom used to be so close. I miss her. I miss her and me being so close. I loved telling her every aspect of my life. Guys. Friends. School.

Then I got this “teenage thing” or so she thought. I started cutting myself…and she…I think…got disgusted with me. She couldn’t talk to me right for a while.

I felt terrible. I even tried to commit suicide. It was bad. She underestimates the problems I have sometimes. Oh…I wish I could tell her “Mom…I hate my life. I want to die. I want to cut. Help me?”

What do I do? I miss her so much.