learn to control my anxiety

I could happilly just not go. I know it’s what I want to do and all that, but it’s just so scary. I’m terrified. I don’t feel like I can cope with this… Breathe…

It’s depressing and frustrating talking to these people
But I know that if I stick with it it will help…
Crosses Fingers

this Thursday, I’m a bit nervous! If that isn’t Irony, I don’t know what is!

to see a consultant psychologist
Going in about two weeks.
Really looking forward to it in a weird way, just want to see what she says, and if she can help me. I hope so. I just want to be me again

has decided he wants me to go see my GP and get her to refer me to The Priory for CBT.
The Priory, I ask you!?

...but, i went to the doctors today, and to college, and then the pharmasist’s, tescos and the petrol station, had only one minor panic attack AND i haven’t even had any valium all day!

Then I made spicy fake chicken and vegetables for lunch. That part is totally irrelevant, but TASTY!

to go to the shop.

What is actually wrong with me, I should be able to go to the shop without freaking out, shouldn’t I?!

It’s not even far. I want to be normal again.

Since she died, I really just want to stay in my house =[

an emergency prescription for diazepam

it’s alright, I guess…

It was just to get me through the funeral and the next few days, so I’ll not be on them for long..

I’m so stressed because my Gran’s not well, and she’s in the hospital, and my mum’s really stressed out too, so we’re both getting ill.

I hate the fact that any stress whatsoever just makes my stomach go pure insane and I can’t eat like ANYTHING without feeling really sick.

I HATE THIS!

I had a test in maths last week and i had to run out three times because i was freaking out so much.

i didn’t think i knew the work and every time i looked at it it just started swimming infront of my eyes and i thought i was going to be sick.

got the results back on friday, and i got 41 out of 43 marks.

so i was freaking out for NO REASON and i was so proud but so angry at myself!!