take better care of myself

well im off to the dentist tomorrow..wish me luck. this is somthing that i havent tended to very well in a long time. i want to be able to smile again and not worry about foods i like and feeling like a hobo pirate..

the first step on somthing scary

well this is a test of that…

i have two massivly broken teeth and creeping to an apointment to have my face fucked up. its funny how its got to get worse to get better..

normally this is when i wont eat and my heath and well being goes ot shit. you are in pain your primal reaction is to lay there and…die..
so i have been eating and drinking weather i tastes like carboard or not. and trying to maintain some form of sleeping habit. ..
not stress too much eventhough shit keeps happening but im keeping up on things…i would love a thick steak right now but ill settle for mushy raisin bran… but it will help the …lower area not bung up…

this self care thing aint so bad…lots of baths and books and video games. i dig it. but right now holding up strong. trying to take care

well i am trying to maintain the winning eating and sleeping and working out pattern. i know this is going to be a lot of time of ajustment. i have a rediculiously fast metabolism and it yo yos so bad all the time.

i have been working on the basics..more meal more frequently and better things in one sitting. ALSO balancing meals with more then on food item...ie meat potatos...chicken rice..etc..not just a box of crap dinner or ten progies. i know this is going to be the key. i have noticed ebing able to preform a bit better when i need to use my brain. i think clearer and sharper. but the body is still a little slugish...

but im trying to break the cycle of being”the sick kid” it irritates me so im reserching strengthening and workoutf for my pysic..i do a lot of dance. so i have been dancing consistantly more and ready working the choreogyhy into my muscles..memory..the feeling of being able to move like there is no gravity on my body…

one foot..
in front
of the other
im working through it like a dance. masteering the steps