live my best life

BUT…I have realized some things that I want out of life, particularily in my current life and now its just a matter of making conscious choices to move in those directions in spite of my fear that I didn’t even know I had. WOW.

I think I have only become more frusturated with this issue. THe problem is that it doesnt matter how bad you want something, there are limitations that you cant always get past. And then I get frusturated with feeling like I’m never going to get anywhere and then I miss out on what I could be doing and enjoying now. Even the simple things. Part of living my best life must be in finding joy in the every day things and even when things are awful and you just cant wait for the next stage of ife. If I keep waiting for the next stage, my life will go by and I will have missed it all.

I want to live the life I want to live. I want to be who I want to be no matter what other people think I should be. Everyone has all these ideas of who they want you to be. What the heck. I just want to be and do what I want to do. What’s with all the expectations?? And why do I feel the need to try and meet these expectations and then skip out on my own expectations of myself. Seriously. To thine own self be true kinda thing. Ok, that’s enoough of that.