be a singer

I know, sometimes we all have our dark days. I was sick with bronchitis and got pretty hoarse. Now that my voice has come back, I’m able to sing better? Or maybe just different. Studying Wanda Jackson has also helped…

How do I do it? I really welcome your thoughts and ideas. I have had a show recently, and it went quite well. I got lots of positive feedback. I made a video of the show, but, I’m not satisfied with it. When I’m up there and singing I think it’s pretty good. Then when I watch it, I think I suck! I think what am I doing and why??

In a continent, a country, or a city full of people, does it matter that I want to be a singer? I look around me and see such a saturated market. Saturated with too much of everything, yet not enough. Sometimes boredom gets to me, and I feel stepped on.

We have our second concert coming up in 2 weeks. We need more practice (read: I)! I’m a bit nervous. I seem to be in a bit of a question area with my voice too. Not sure how to make my voice louder than the drummer.

I had a band practice last Friday. It was ok, actually pretty good. The drummer was bugging me though. I like him, he’s a good drummer, but he’s a weenie. I have a bad feeling about him in the future.
I also suggested some more songs to the guys. One of them was a new one I have written. They liked them all except one that sounded 60’s like- that one the slap bass guy didn’t really like. But then he said, if you like it then it’s important.
When I mentioned later some of my feelings about the drummer, the guitar guy said he was in agreement a bit, but hey, you’re the boss.
Funny thing. I always thought that he was the boss and oh thank you oh thank you for letting me be in your band. Sometimes it’s difficult for me to take the lead. I feel like I’m being a greedy little bitch or something.

I’m sitting trying to write a new song. The ‘patterns’ idea has really helped. I’ve got an idea, a melody, but just have to get it all out.

I went to see some Dutch bands the other night. All were really good. I saw for the first time patterns in music between the blues, early rock and roll, and rockabilly/rock. It’s like the base is the same, but the outer parts are taken apart and rearranged. Like a base covered with clumps of clay. The clay is removed then added in different formations. Got some ideas for songwriting.

I have recently seen some amazing live shows and talked with the performers. A basic message I have learned is to loosen up. I am the creator of my music. Perhaps some universal force is powering through me, but I have full license to write the songs and sing them in my own special way.

I’ve had surgery on my jaw. My teeth are fucked! I look and sound like a hick. But I gotta get over this. I have to practice more singing today and tomorrow and everyday. Singing is helping me realise my goal and is helping me get my speech back.
I saw some really good music over the holidays. I was again inspired and learned some things. For eg., loosen up on the writing- songs can be simple and catchy. Next, my voice is great. I can relax and just let it flow. I have to get over the feeling that I don’t sound classically perfect. Man how those ideas still stick in my head from my first voice teacher when I was 16!

I had a band practice the other night and it was only so so. I also lost my voice due to my cold! I hadn’t practiced very much before. During the practice I felt so bad that I thought the boys would kick me out of the band.
I have to stay on top of things. Can’t let this all slip and have another bad memory for the future.