I want... — 2 years ago
a lot. So this might be hard to take on.
I don’t think I’ve ever settled, so far. There’s nothing in my life that I can look at and say “I wish I had something more”. Or at least not something that is completely attainable on my own. Sure, sometimes I would like a boyfriend, but I can’t just go out on the street and get one, now can I? I’m not settling by being single, I’m just… waiting. It’s not like I’m doing absolutely nothing to try and change that. Plus, sometimes I think it’s better for me to be single. It’s better for me to be free, it’s better for me to have nothing to tie me down. And I don’t think I’m ready for a boyfriend. I’m not mature enough, haha. A part of me is saying that I wouldn’t trust the guy enough to really be in a good relationship, but another part just shows me where I am in life now, where I am in a position where I am winding up trusting people fairly easily. Certain people, at least. And in trusting those people, they have become very close to me, and very dear to me. Which is what you want when you’re with a boyfriend, yes?
I am so inexperienced with relationships :P
