fall asleep easily

This goal is “fall asleep easily” not “have a normal sleep schedule” but that was the real intention. For now, until the final Harry Potter book comes out and I finish it, I’m abandoning this goal. My attentions are now on messing up my sleep schedule so that I’ll have no problem staying up all night reading in, what? Two days? I can’t wait!

Okay, so I was just lying in my bed, listening to my bedtime playlist (one website suggested that you have a bedtime ritual that you do only at bedtime so that your brain knows that it’s time to go to sleep, and this is mine) and my sister comes in, thinking I’m asleep, and tries to shut off my music! I hear her doing this, and she says she can’t sleep while it’s on. I tell her that I’m trying to avoid hearing my mom’s snoring. Let me tell you, snoring is one of those things that really upsets me, like birds chirping and gum gnashing noises. Those are the things that just listening to and not being able to do anything about, will make me start crying and throwing such a fit. So she says, well, get over it, because I can’t sleep with your music on. It’s that that really bothers me! She thinks I can just get over my hatred of these noises, like it’s something I chose to do! If it was my choice, I would not be bothered by this stuff in the least! I hate that I am. She’s so selfish. She’s a little annoyed by my music, and I’m driven insane by snoring, and I’m the one who should “get over it”. Why should I have to be the one to get over not being able to sleep with a certain noise? Why not her? It would certainly be easier for her. I know that you are thinking, well, why should SHE have to get over it, and not me? Aren’t I being a little selfish wanting her to deal with it? Isn’t that hypocritical? Well, it is. However, I think I’m justified in this hypocrisy. I know that she can not be as bothered by my music as I am by my mom’s snoring, because no person could be that bothered by anything. Honestly, it’s a miracle how upset it can make me. And I have to deal with her talking on the phone every night, until past three AM, loudly. This proves that I have to deal with her noises, and she doesn’t need sleep. I need someone to agree with me on this. Make me feel better. Right now I just want to stab her for taking my hate of snoring so lightly. I think she just thinks I’m being a drama queen and rolls her eyes when I get so upset about it. But it is truly awful for me. I can’t stand it. It’s the worst thing for me. Worse than any physical pain could be. I hate that she doesn’t believe me and thinks that I could just get over it. I canm’t even express this in words, and I feel so angry right now that I have to tell somebody, but there’s nobody to tell and no way to tell them, because this feeling is beyond what I can explain with any words. Anything I use to explain it would jsut be a shadow of what I feel. I just need someone to agree with me on this.

I know you’re wondering on how this relates to “fall asleep easily” because the only thing that’s been said about sleep is she can’t with music, and I can’t with snoring, and I was trying to fall asleep when this happened. Well, that’s just it. Now I have to start all over again and I most certainly will not be able to wake up so early so as to get to bed early tomorrow. This is the bigggest problem. Now I have to start my bedtime routine all over again.

and I’m still wide awake!
ARG!
I’m going to go lie in bed for another hour.
I seriously don’t know what’s wrong with me. I exercised HARD for forty-five minutes, no caffeine, no food two hours before I plan on going to sleep. I didn’t wake up super-early, but I woke up at 9:15, which isn’t very late for the summer. I’ll set it so I wake up at 8:55 tomorrow morning, and 8:50 the next day, and so on until it’s six or so.

...things don’t always work the way you want them to. I woke up, turned the volume down, and fell back to sleep.

I did not take a nap, although I was feeling very, very tired and lethargic this afternoon. I stuck it out! Sleep is for the weak! (at least afternoon naps) and now I’m not tired at all, I’m very giddy and I couldn’t fall asleep if my life depended on it. I’ll set my alarm for six am and then by this time tomorrow (even earlier, hopefully), I will be very tired and have no problem going to sleep!

Probably not really, but I often feel like it. I always end up tossing and turning. My mom’s snoring is really awful, and it doesn’t help. It really upsets me and I just wish it would stop. Even when she’s not around and snoring, I have trouble falling asleep. I can’t seem to find a comfortable position, my mind won’t stop thinking about things that have happened during the day and worrying about tomorrow, even if I do all the things I’ve read about on websites, no caffeine, no computer or television, no eating two hours prior. The only time it seems that I get a good night’s sleep is when I take an extra antihistamine or two.