do a 5-day cleansing fast

Yep, I broke my fast early this morning, I had an apple. The best apple ever in my opinion. I’m not much of an apple eater, maybe I should make a note to eat more apples. Or the apples we get at home just suck…

At least I got through three days. Trying to sleep on a crappy bed with an empty stomach hurts too much. Maybe I will do this again when I have a more comfy bed.

I had breakfast this morning too, Nothing too crazy. I had two hash browns with catsup, couple bites of wheat toast (why our toast is so DRY I will never know, wheat toast at home isn’t this dry!!!!), nibbles of bacon (which sucked btw…., after two bites It lost it’s flavor and was chewy). I also had a small bowl of total cereal in milk. Lots of cranberry juice and water.
The raisins in the cereal were heavenly. I never really appreciated the subtle sweeteness of fruit until after this. I’ve actually been trying to get to the point by eating way less sugary stuffs for a long time. So far I have been successful.
It didn’t look like I ate much, but in actuality I ate about as much as I normally do, Enough to be satisfied. I don’t like to be overfull, it’s REALLY uncomfortable. I besides that, I don’t think I could deal with being over full in this state.

There were a couple of other things I always put on my plate, sometimes I eat it, sometimes I don’t. I had some apple dessert thingy, and a waffle drizzled with syrup and honey. I couldn’t bring myself to eat either. The thought of eating concentrated sugar in the morning is enough to make me blow chunks, even on a “normal” day. A flake of the sugar topping on the apple thing accidentally got on my hashbrowns and I didn’t see it. It almost made me gag. Blech!

I think I will have a salad for lunch… nothing too exciting. Hopfully their spinach won’t be half wilted this time. It’s near the end of the week, so I know that’s alot to ask for. I would have grabbed some fruit from the caferteria to take to the dorm, but all they had was bananas. I’m allergic to bananas, dang. Maybe they will have other fruit out by lunch?

Still not hungry. Though I have been tempted a couple of times.
Like that jar of unopened sweet pickles sitting on the top of my chest of drawers. Like I just keep it there to mock me, lol.

Actually it hasn’t been THAT rough of a ride. The only thing that is tough is waiting. I’m not a patient person.

That weird onion smell did come back today but not as strong. I’m thinking it might be me sweatdrop.

Friday will be my last day. It’s probably going to be most difficult. One of my classes has been canceled that day because of spring break. The professor didn’t see the point in having class since attendance will at an all time low.
I guess I will have to pick up a video game or something. I’m not going home until Sat. I almost envy all those people who are going some place cool. Then again I would rather be home and close to my boyfriend.

I dont really want to go to the store to buy more juice (my only option since I have limited equiptment at the dorm). I’ve only been using it as water flavoring anyway. I only have 1 and 1/2 gallons of water left too. By the end of this I may have to go to the store for more water.

Being independent of food is actually nice. My insides have this calm about them that I’ve been feeling since day 2. Maybe the food at the dorms won’t be so boring after this is over.

My sinuses are pretty clear but I’m still spitting up gunk every now and again, yellowish gunk. I had a cold prior, maybe it’s that or crap actually being cleansed out of my lungs.

I’ll probably wait the rest out with water only. I still feel pretty good. Though last night I was getting a headache, I think it was rolling around in bed so much. My dumb roommate and her friends stayed up all night, and watched Xfiles and movies. I woke up for class this morning and my roommate was STILL watching movies, but on her computer this time. Her friends was asleep though.

My neck and shoulders are no longer stiff. I didn’t realise it earlier, but it was probabaly from me carrying 3 gallons of water on my shoulder that did it… that and the combination of some bad pillows.

So far I haven’t felt many ill effects of the detox. Well, except for that day when I failed. But I hopped right on the horse.

Doing this makes me realise how much time I spend actually EATING. I always eat slow, so my lunch period lasts anywhere from 30 minutes to a whole hour (I would so be at home in europe). I feel like I don’t need to budget my time was much when I need to study and what not.

I seriously don’t know what that smell was or where it came from. ?_?

I took a shower and it went away. Maybe the shower cleaned out my nose or something. My roomate, her sister, and sister’s boyfriend came back this evening, with pizza this time. I’m surprised I didn’t get a waft of it. Actually I didn’t smell it at all. Weird. I know my sense of smell isn’t gone, I could definitely smell the the guy’s shoes. Wheww! Funky_~!

Still not hungry! Wh00t!

I finished off the gallon of water that was sitting in the fridge, and added another to get chilled. I also finished off the juice, took a good three days to drink it up.

Weird… I have been smelling garlic/onion for the the last few hours. It smells just like I just got done chopping some, but I didn’t! I know if you eat enough onion/garlic it will go through your pores….maybe I’m excreting some through my skin?

Also, outside smells like a wet greesy hamburger bun. Interesting I must say.

We’ll see what happens. I have a crap load of homework for data Structures to do. A Linear Algebra test tommarrow, and some calculus III homework to do. That should be plenty to keep me busy.

And if all that fails, I guess I will have to break down and watch tv or something. I’m not much of a tv watcher really. I hate daytime tv, I dunno how people who stay home during the day do it. All it is, is soap operas and other irrelevant junk.

Maybe the Video Games my little brother sent will do the trick. Too bad I dont have any memory cards. Rgh! I just don’t know what happened to them! I usually keep everything in one spot, all neat and organized, though there are times when it does get messy. But even if it’s messy, everything is generally in it’s area it belongs to.
It drives me nuts when I can’t find things. It’s not that I’m a neat freak or anything , it just it used to be my job as a straightener at Crap-mart. So when I have spent a good 5 years
picking up after lazy ass customers, I don’t want to come home and try to find things there. Sure I was good at my job, but just because I was good at it doesn’t mean I like it.

I was just so tempted last night though. My roomate and her sister, and sister’s boyfriend stopped by last night to crash. They ended up getting a bunch of liquor and stuff. They also wanted to order a pizza, which they didn’t. I don’t booze alot, but I like to try new things out from time to time. They always drink so much. Every time they come down they drink. I honestly don’t see what’s so great about drinking. Surely there’s something else out there that more fun than drinking until you get drunk. Just my opinion.

The boyfriend didn’t stay for the entire night. They still have some wine glasses out and ect.. I didn’t know my roomate had wine glasses. looks at it closer The lip on one of them isn’t even, lol. They must have gotten them at Dollar Tree or something. Then neck of one is skinny than the other too. It’s a sad wine glass :P

Distraction is helping immensely. Especially this program I’m trying to write that WON’T FREAKING COMPILE! Yep, life is good.
When something doesn’t work, I tend to spend hours on it.

My sense of smell if very keen. I just glanced at the Quesadilla bag in the wastebasket and can smell it even though the scent has long since been spent.

I’m still tired though. I’m surviving today much better than yesterday.

My naps are always really long, I have never been able to take a cat nap. I like nap from anywhere to 1-4 hours at a time, even when I’m not fasting. X_x I took a four hour nap today, with the light on in the room. I can’t seem to sleep when I supposed to. AT NIGHT! It has something to do with the lighting, I just know it. At night light from the outside street lights filter through the blinds enough to keep me awake. I wish I wasn’t such a night owl. The other delimma is I don’t feel like doing my homework until the evening/ late at night. It’s a constant struggle. I have a 8a.m. calculus class too. I couldn’t help it. The other class avaliable conflicted with my schedule.

I also forgot to bring my black bandana. I usually use it to hold my hair back to wash my face. I could have used it to cover my eyes had I known it would have been another issue. I guess I will have to wait for a trip to the mall again, and maybe get myself something to cover my eyes when I go.

A weekend is definitely not a good time to do this. I got really bored, by 12:00a.m. I had eaten something. Vegetable stir fry.

BUT, I only ate a small dish of it with a few prezels. I didn’t pig out or anything. The stirfry sucked anyhow. All I had on hand was stir fry veggies in a can. I will never use stir fry veggies in a can EVER again. They suck. I had at least enough restraint to not eat an entire day. Boredom seems to be my biggest killer. In fact, when I was heavier I used to eat out of boredom.

Back to square one. It’s currently 1:38 p.m. and I haven’t eaten. Sleep helps me get through it. Hopefully I have some homework today that will distract me a bit. I can’t screw up now. If I do, I won’t be able to fast for the next week because I will be going home on Saturday for spring break. Bummer.

The last two days I have been sore around my back, neck and shoulders. I dunno if it’s because I’m sleeping longer periods of time on a crappy bed, It’s my pillows or maybe the attempting to fast is doing it. Any clues? I know you can experience aches and pains. I won’t take asprin. It wouldn’t be good on an empty stomach and I don’t think it’s reccommended. I usually steer clear of meds anyway. It I have a headache I won’t take asprin unless I’m not able to nap it off.

I started about midnight so, maybe a couple hours earlier, but I use that is a safe point to start. I will see how this goes. It’s presently 1:34p.m. where I am. The dorms caferterias are already closed because I slept in too long, again, so no food! No temptation, except for all the junk that is in my dorm. By most people’s standards beans and carrot in a can isn’t junk food. In actuality it is. They are Overprocessed, contain perservatives and extra salt and/or sugar.
Some of you are probabaly wondering why I have cans of beans and stuff in my dorm. That is because we had good power supply to the dorms, we can have a slow cooker or an electric skillet is we want, they just have to follow some requirements.

Today I made a note to stock up on supplies since I’m going on a juice fast. I was running low on water and juice from last time. I don’t have a juicer so I’m stuck with store bought juice, which I will seriously water down. I also got more water. The tap water up here is horrible XO. I also got a bit of exercise from the excursion. I don’t have a car and campus town is just a walk away. I’m only 5’3 and ended up carrying a box of 3 gallons of water and two jugs of juice back to my dorm. I’m not saying I’m a wimp or anything, but when you’re small, things are often not the optimal size and shape for carrying. Makes it really difficult.

I am already feeling the after effects of muscle weakness from carrying the load. My left arm that held the water steady on my shoulder can’t stand to be held up as I type right now. It feels so weak. This is to be expected.
Not to mention I also had only two small meals yesterday and they weren’t very good ones. My boyfriend came up to visit me and we had to go to Taco Bell. X_x. There I had some Mountain Dew, and half a chicken quesadilla, and half a beef chalupa fresco style. I saved the rest for later. No, I’m no anorexic either, I’m actually at a very normal weight. I just don’t eat a bunch at one time. Mostly I eat a lot of smaller meals. I also don’t get out much to do anything, so my body just doesn’t need as many calories.
I see other girls in my dorm who are smaller than me pig out. They exercise alot so guess what? They are more hungry. I can’t stand to get over full, it feels way too uncomfortable, anyway.

So far I had only been hungry 2 or 3 times. Lucky for me. Drinking water and juice has helped out alot with that. I read that alot of times when we think we are hungry, we are really thristy. I have made a point to drink more fluids. I can probabaly say I’m the most hydrated person on campus right now, unless there is a french person or something.

I had done a fast once before. Although it was by accident. But I must admit, it was REALLY NICE not to be dependent on food. Before I was hungry all the time, wanting this or that. Or even waiting for the next meal time.

The supermarket trip wasn’t that difficult actually. The only store we have close enough to walk to is a Save-A-Lot. And alot of their food is unappetizing, I couldn’t smell it very well because most of what they have is canned food. The vegetables did make me doa double take though….
I have also been training myself to think I don’t like junk food. So far it’s been working, and if that fails, I just say tell myself I can’t afford it. Maybe I’m stronger than the average person, or not-Or I’ve already been working on my diet before the fast. I don’t ever drink pop at lunch, just water and juice. Recently I’ve been adding more water than juice at lunch to become less dependent on sugars. I already succeeded in not being addicted to pop and cafiene. I have to be careful though. If I drink a bottle of Mountain Dew I find myself craving more, even if it gives me a stomach ache. It’s the only pop that does this to me. I can drink another pop and not want to continue drinking it. Mountain Dew must have something in it that’s EVIL. That I am convinced of :P. When I get teh money I’m sooo getting a juicer. My boyfriend and I have been wanting to get one for a while, and with spring on the corner it’s gonna be excellent for all those greens Xd.

female stuffs, if you’re a guy you may not want to read this part

I like greens alot actually. Do you know that fresh spinach will help menstrual cramps and bleeding? Once I got on this spinach kick and ate a spinach salad for dinner every evening for two weeks before the Ahem time of month. I don’t get cramps per say… but my lower abdomen and legs will be sore on the first day. I used to not get any symptoms at all. lucky me! After eating so much spinach when it came I had less flow and I didn’t hurt at all. Alot of it has to do with a iron deficiency around this time. Spinach has alot of iron and helps you absorb it better. Have cramps? Eat Spinach!

If you are male you may resume reading here

If I ever get a juicer I am so curious what parsley juice would taste like. I LOVE parsley….. okay you probabaly think I’m nuts by now. Parsley is good for you. And if you get the chance to eat some good parsley, eat it! I went out to a restaurant a couple of days ago with some friends on the floor. They all had salads and hamburgers. I had some appetizer platter. I didn’t have anything green to eat except my parsley, and there wasn’t very much. So I ate it, then asked the girl sitting next to me,”Hey, are you gonna eat your parsley?” She looked at me funny, and passed it over to my plate, as did everyone else at the table, finding it amazing that it was even editable. I ended up with 5 people’s parsley on my plate. I was only able to eat half of it… I got made fun of for drinking alot of water too. Some people just don’t understand. Sigh At least I had food left over for breakfast the next day. I hate breakfastfood, it makes me nauseous! So saving my dinner ended up being a good thing.

Now to sit and wait out day one. Lol.