make more friends

I believe the last time I wrote an entry, this wasn’t going so well. I’m happy to say I have more friends now. And my outlook on life is happier in general thanks to a friend I met at work over the summer. She was alway happy with an upbeat additude, and I sort of picked up on that and applied it to my own life.

Major win this time around.
I also have more friends at this dorm than my last. The girls here are a bit closer to my age, and easier to relate to.

One of of thre things I learned from my friend is hold you chin up, make more eyes contact, and smile. You can’t make any friends if they don’t know you’re looking for any! Kick it up a knotch and start saying good morning to people you don’t know (with in reason of course. If you look and smile at someone and they still seem pissy, look the other way move on to your next prospect >.>).

The new semester helped out alot. It was the beginning and I was able to join some clubs and activities. My advice, NEVER transfer to a new college for spring semester, unless you think you can handle being lonely.
At least I have friends in my activities, but I really need more personal friends.

My roommate talks to me this year! Yay! Unfortunately I think she needs me as a friend more than I need her. It makes me realize how fortunate I am to have social skills, even if I forget to use them. But that doesn’t stop me from inviting her to go do stuff with me and my friends. Even if I don’t do much.

I went to a study session with some of the people in my data structures class today. I guess last time they had a session they didn’t even think about inviting me. :/

It’s kinda late in the semester to hang out though, right now it’s finals time.

I dunno.. maybe I’m just out of sync with my generation… or this college isn’t for me. I’ll give it another semester.

So far, I have +2 friends that I talk to in class…
+0 people I actually hang out with.

Maybe it has to do with the fact I don’t smile very often. Some people just seem to have a perpetual smile on their face. I’m just not a very smiley person in general. I think I scare people because of this. Like Richard, the guest speaker for my art class. He thought I hated him until I did the assigment he was helping us on.

My classes keep me in my dorm studying.. I dunno if I can do this.. Though I spend time with the RA’s at lunch in the office today. I guess that’s a start.

I never seem to make close friends though. Just school aquantainces. It’s kinda disheartening :(

Is it possible for a girl to have close friends without having to be physically touchy feely? People here tend glomp each other and slap each other on the ass. Where I come from it not quite as common. I don’t really like to touch people unless it’s like shaking hands or whatever… geeze I feel like such a guy sometimes. You know I’ve never shared an article of clothing with another girl? O.o

I think I have social issues with other women :( I never had alot of girl friends, just a bunch of guy friends. I try to make friends with the people within my major but they are always too busy with calculus or physics or something.. Rgh!

I just transfered to a new college mid semester, the making the friends thing is a little rough, no one is looking for friends like they do in the beginning of the year. My roommate is a dud, and doesn’t really talk to me, and my major doesn’t really drum up any conversation. I tell them Computer Science and people are like “Oh”, and kinda lose interest in me… unless they have computer problems. Ugh! Maybe I should stick with telling people my minor.

My track record isn’t any better… I never had any real friends. And the ones I did have I had to work really hard to keep, and even they didn’t last. I always get stuck in these one-sided friendships. I would like to I have a friendship once in my life where the person actually thought about doing something with me, and not the other way around. It’s really depressing. I finally got a cellphone this semester, but I have no phone numbers to put on it. The only numbers I have is family.

Alot of times I feel out of sync with other people my age, if you don’t know about alot of celebrities, or movies, then people seem to have no interest in you. Honestly, I couldn’t give a crap about Angelina Jolie, or Leonardo Dicaprio. And I generally can’t sit still enough for a movie… unless it’s funny.
It’s really embarrassing when people start asking me what movies I have watched, but they will keep asking about other movies and finally they ask “What DO you watch?”. My reply,” Uhh, I really don’t watch that much tv.” Then they assume we nothing in common at all, just because I don’t watch much tv, then the friend process ceases. Or there’s the few who stick around a little longer because of their facination with my tvlessness. I have better conversations with people who are older than me. It’s always been that way. >_< rgh!
-And I’m not gonna fake knowing this stuff either. Learning/doing something just to get people to like you is…messed up. It’s messed up enough to put me on the brink of a tangent.

I have a feeling that’s how the world works. There’s that double standard for individuals and conformists; be true to yourself not matter what, and do what it takes to survive. I’m very much and individual maybe because I draw. I like to be unique and different, but when you are confronted with making friends there is alot of presssure to conform. Those who flourish socially have a tendency to conform. And if you think by purposely trying to being different you are being an individual, you’re wrong, you’re just conforming. It’s those who are different and are not purposely trying to be who are truly different. All in all, I feel I shouldn’t have to learn about things I don’t care about in order to make friends :/, though there could be some exceptions. But I’m not gonna be some fakey about it.
If that made any sense to you, please, be my friend, lol. Seriously, consider it.

I don’t have quiet as much trouble on the internet with making friends, but have some real social contact would be nice in a while. It would make me quit sleeping so much out of boredom.