stop thinking so much

Having a girlfriend around (especially one that I’ve been with for a year now) has really helped to hault my interior monologue. To be clear, the objective of this goal is not to banish my inner voice altogether, but to quiet it when it’s not necessary. I used to worry about everything and look for a silver lining or an extra meaning in whatever people said, but now I’m a bit more relaxed.

I don’t want to get to a point where I just stop talking in my head, but it’s nice to have a clear head space every once in a while. It’s not so much that I’ve watered down my brain, but I’ve learned when it is or isn’t important to analyze things. Saves me a lot of headaches.

For every one sentence I say aloud, there are five other sentences running through my head. Do you have any idea what’s it like to try and have a conversation with someone when your head won’t shut up talking to itself?! I constantly over-analyze everything and see signs in things that don’t have any meaning in them. I feel like Professor John Nash from that movie “A Beautiful Mind” where he’s locked up in his shed, seeing encrypted codes about the Russians in newspapers even though it all means NOTHING.

It’d be nice to forego the interior monologue every once in a while…