get pregnant

10/09: 14 – 17 ^30D

A little late this month, but it was just that. A little late.

09/09: 15 – 18 ^28D

We’ve run from spring through summer and headfirst into fall. We’re still running though. Our tests were normal, so even though the hope’s a tad bruised, it’s still shining.

A couple of the other preschool moms had babies over the summer and oh they’re so lovely and tiny and new; their big brothers and sisters so proud. I’m just a slight shade of green (just a minor hue, a mere hint of chartreuse).

I wish I could rewind my clock back a few years, but since that’s not an option we’ll just keep trying and hope for the best.

08/09: 19 – 22 ^28D

Blood tests done, his and hers. One left for this first round.

I suppose this month conception might have over-crowded the life party, but we sent an invitation anyway. Life always stirs some chaos into the mix. We’ll keep trying.

07/09: 23 – 26^26D

We’re not worried, but we want to double check under our respective hoods (sooner rather than later) to be sure everything is in fine running order, so Monday we had an appointment with Dr. Joy. I brought in my charts, we had a nice chat about baby making (I’m glad M is so comfortable talking about these things in detail, I know many men aren’t) and left with some good advice and a paper fan of lab requisitions to check blood, hormone levels, and such. We both have a date with a needle tomorrow, and a prescription for extra love. Sexy.

06/09: 27 – 30^26D

We’re still having fun (and I’m continuing to keep track of when to have extra fun), but nothing’s been fruitful thus far. I find myself saddled with some monthly disappointment pangs that kick in shortly after the cramps do, but we’re energetically optimistic. It hasn’t been that long. We watched an interesting (and humorous) show about sperm recently; added a few new things to the knowledge bank.

Some good news – one of my oldest friends (who hopped on the baby making wagon around the same time as we did) just found out they’re six weeks along! It’s extra nice to hear because she was with me when I found out about Isak. I wish her & her husband a very happy and healthy pregnancy. And hey, sometimes these things are contagious…

Still trying
06/09: 03-06^29D

Just to keep track
03/09: 17-20 ^34D
04/09: 09-12 ^23D
05/09: 05-08 ^26D

Several of my friends are also shining up their eggs, although some have been trying longer than others (maybe we should start a baby pool!). It’s still soon. If we get to the 6 month mark and there still seems to be a no parking sign on my belly, I’ll schedule a chat with Joy. Until then, we’ll just keep on keeping on, which I have absolutely no complaints about.

Sadly, it seems to be a no. At least for now. Negative stick last night, negative test at the office. The peculiar thing is, I feel pregnant. I’m nailing all the symptoms in the book & I’m nearly a week late, but maybe wishful thinking shook my biological tree. My doctor did say that everything looks great & that if AF is AWOL a week from now, I should get a blood test to be 100% sure.

It would have been shockingly soon for us to conceive, I know, but I’m still feeling pretty down. It was a good test drive of our emotions though, which were very joyful at the prospect. Maybe next time. We were expecting a long haul & are still chock full of hope.

Thank you for the cheers and comments, I almost feel like apologies are in order – I may be less exuberantly vocal about unverified oven-bun suspicions in the future. Bright side? This means I can enjoy some Guinness tomorrow. Stay tuned.

I’m just not patient enough to wait to see the doctor. How strange to go out and spend decent money on something only to pee on it when you get it home. Here goes nothing… there’s a loooooong three minutes of thumb twiddling coming up. And I’m turning the computer off for the night.

I don’t know. All I know is I’m not positive that I’m not positive, and I’m thinking positively.