Tell L about K

L got the envelope this morning (much earlier than I’d expected) and called. We just got off the phone. Very overwhelming. She’s calling back later after having time to think, and speak with other family members.

It could be such an amazing thing when the dust settles. I understand – I was overwhelmed too, and for her it must be multiplied ten times over. I’ve also had some time to think & digest it all.

I hope I haven’t made things more painful. I don’t know if I’ve dealt with this in the right way at all. Maybe I should have said something when I first found out. It’s been so hard balancing the facts and respecting other people’s wishes (mine included).

It’s bitter and slushy outside, but I didn’t let that keep me from the post office. I walked over just before lunch. My fingers were numb by the time I got there.

When I reached into my purse for the envelope I found my striped gloves there, so the walk home was warmer & lighter.

4 work days, they said.
I suppose that means Wednesday. A new year even.

(deep breath)

An introduction of sorts. There are pictures inside. I’m mailing it tomorrow, then will try to sort out exactly what to say before the phone rings sometime next week.

I desperately hope I’m doing the right thing in the right way. I feel that I am.

I’ve kept this secret for 4 months now, which has been a painful thing to do – I wanted to tell L so badly. K has finally said I can. Now I need to figure out the very best way to do it. It’s complicated and very important.