Work on my Secret Goal

This Secret Agent is doing well on her secret goal! I have pushed myself to do this because in the long run it will do me some good. It just isn’t very easy to keep up on it. I guess it is hard because a part of me is against it, of course.

Anything that is good for you is harder to do then something that is just plain bad to do and live with.

Yesterday was a success and today seems to be one too. I just have to push on for tomorrow and Thursday and then it will only look better and better for me.

I am strong! I can do this!

This Secret Agent was unable to establish the correct directive in order to move forward toward the secret goal.

Still trying, because a person is only a failure if they give up.

Not giving up! I will acheive this!

Today is the first day of my secret goal. So far, I am confident about it but I am not alone. Once I get alone, I tend to have a change of heart, which always changed the goal. Of course!

Keeping myself positive and even trying to incorporate a step process. Collecting a really interesting rock a day. Yes, I am going for a rock thing to symbolize my goal. Rocks are hard, and unmovable at times just like me. I can be very stubborn. A symbol of my stubborness to achieve this goal as well as keep my mind on the goal itself.

Rock are unmovable, hence I am not to give up!

Day one is mine, so says the secret agent!

I was able to complete my goal and stick with it for 10 days which was what I wanted to do. Yipee for me!

I feel great and I am very very happy!

I have been putting this off or have been working on it only to have it fall through. Starting February 4th, I am going to start on it once again and hopefully stick with it for a month if I can. I will just see. If I can go just two weeks, then I have accomplished my goal. It will be great for me!

Saturday I will sit down and focus on the particulars and write down the things that I want to accomplish during that time. I also need to make sure that everything is in order for me to start on Sunday.

I really wanted to start it before the new year so I could start the new year with a bang. I did really well until last night then I just dropped the goal once again.

I guess my heart is just not into it as I thought it might be. I am going to work on focusing on this goal and then try again on the 17th of December and go on from there. Then I might be able to progress so where after that period of time.

I am setting my start date again as 12/1/06 which will give me another full day to prepare then I am off and running with my goal. I really need to focus on this because as things have been going for me, I need this to help me refocus on my life and how I am feeling.

Decemember is such a depressing month for me as all of the winter seasons. I am afraid that my depression is taking root again and I know I can not afford getting back on any medication to help aleavate the feelings of despair that I am having.

I am just trying to stay positive and my eye focused on the Lord, when I am not able to focus on anything else. My memorized scripture is coming in handy for me.

I haven’t been working on this goal at all and I have decided that I am restarting this goal again today.

I have to get myself all worked up and excited about it and then maybe I will be able to advance on this one.

I haven’t given up on it. I just have been tied up with various other things that starting this once again might be hard. I am going to try for today as the first day again of this goal.

I don’t know if I even want to do this again more. I know if I stick with it, it will help me with various things but my heart just doesn’t seem to be into it.

I was able to continue on the goal until Saturday when I wasn’t thinking and messed up. Sunday was no better either.

Today has been good and if I can keep it that way, it would be great.