enjoy Fall 2007 by having one new and fulfilling experience in October, November, and December

Over a 4 day period, I spend the 22nd December, December 23, 24 and some of the 25 of December with my dearheart. It was very rewarding, new and fulfilling with for me to spend some time with my dearheart and his son.

I couldn’t have asked for more. I would have loved to ring in the new year with him, but he had already made plans with his son. Once again I am out of the loop that people I love are traveling in.

I will hold that wonderful day in my heart because it is all that I have. This new year will be harder for me, because I know that things will change in my life which will sadden my heart and cause it to be heavier.

Only with God will I be able to move foward.

sigh. . .

Saturday I spend the whole day with my dearheart and his son, just being lazy, watching TV, playing video games on the Xbox and taking a nap now and again.

I have to say that I probably shouldn’t have spend the day with my dearheart, knowing that we are having problems. I just couldn’t pass up the quality time with someone I love. He mentioned that Saturday was his and his son’s time and now my time as well.

:o)

It was a beautiful new and fulfilling expereince for me. I was very happy, even though it might not last. I was living in the moment and I was grateful for the time I had with both of them, no matter how short.

I am sure I will have more events in my life in the month of December. I just really don’t like this month because I hate being alone on the holidays.

but my novel is not near finished so I will be working on it far into December to get it all written down and done. Then I will move on to correcting it and fixing the bits and bobs in it.

November was filled with new things as well as painful things. I know that no matter what I do, I grow with every experience.

I think above everything else that has happened to me this month, I have learned more about myself, in a deeper sense since I started writing once again. It has helped me keep in touch with who I really am.

:o)

is definately a new and fulfilling experience for me. I am currently ahead by 4 days and steady moving forward toward the 50,000 mark.

Last week I got my gas turned on so I have HEAT! There is nothing that can be more fulfilling then curling up with a blanket over a heat vent to have a little tent of heat all to yourself. Well, of course, since it is just me, I dont’ have anyone to fight for it, like I did at home. My kitties just go sit on the other vents in the other rooms. Hummph.

I am currently working on Nanowrimo, that seems to be going well as the moment. I have a little bit over of 10,000 words in just 4 days and I haven’t even got to the really good parts of the story yet. Writing my novel has been a bit slow especially Chapters 2 and 3. I am finding that Chapter 4 is going to be the same way. I can’t wait until I get to Chapter 5 (which was suppose to be Chapter 2) which really help my word count grow.

I am doing something today that I have never did before. Give out a loan to a person in need. I fully trust this person and there is no doubt in my mind that he will pay it back. It is just little scary for me to empty my savings knowing I have nothing to fall back on for at least 2 months. Still it makes me feel really good that I am helping someone.

Getting my gas turned back (Hopefully 10/9/07)on it going to be a new and fulfilling experience since it is getting really cold out and I need my heat!

I didn’t start as soon as I would have liked (at midnight) but I did start which is good. Now I just have to keep motivated enough to write through out November and achieve 50,000 words at the end.

I will just have to see what else I can expeirence that is new and fulfilling in November. My problem is that I really dislike the holidays – being alone once again. Sigh. . .

At least I have my kitties. :o)

I was a bit behind on this goal for a while but I realize how easy and EXCITING it can be.

I was hoping to dress up for Halloween tomorrow, but I don’t know if I will have all the necessary ingredients to make my Pirate costume. I might just improvise on what I have.

I have a couple of November’s goals planned. The first and major one is doing NaNoWriMo and it will continue all the way thru November.

I am also planning on making November 4th a special day to reflect on my dearheart and other people I dearly love.

Also, I want to finish my black scarf and my beaded guitar strap for my dearheart.

I am sure I will come up with many more things to do in Wonderful, Thankful November.

at my church. My friend took her children which enjoy it a lot. There were herds of witches, princesses, pirates and other interesting characters.

It was just so fun to see all the cute little kids. It really pulled my heartstrings, knowing that if that things would have been different for me, I would have my own children to herd around the rides and the candy collecting stations.

I don’t regret. It is just a bit sad, but I know that God is in control no matter that I might not understand.

A little boy about 2 just stole my heart. He was dressed up as Little Nemo and everytime he walked his little fish tail wagged back and forth like he was swimming. He was really so cute.

I enjoy watching all the children having so much fun. I was truly blessed on seeing such a wonderful thing.

I went with my friend and her kids to watch them trick or treat. We had a small hay ride which was really fun. I saw a mother with a baby dressed up as a bumblebee. She was so cute. I saw kids dressed up as princesses, pirates and super heroes

Some of the smaller kids could catch the candy fast enough as they threw it into the wagon. I helped two little kids collect some and put some in his pocket when I realized that him and his sister didn’t have a sack to put there candy in. So I gave them a handfull of candy as they left the wagon.

It was so much fun. It is times like this that it really hurts that I don’t have any children of my own in order to watch over and create great Halloween memories with. Nevertheless, I had a great time just spending time with people younger then me.

Plus my dearheart sent me a pic of his son dressed up as an older man -a wig, a pair of glasses and a goatee. It was really funny. He said me a message “Little Pj all grown up, Awwwww.” It was really funny and I really appricated that he shared that moment with me.

:o)

Sunday, my friend and I went a bit crazy. Listening to music, baking cookies and just laughing about various things. It was a very fullfilling experience for me just to enjoy life in such silly way.

It was just funny, as I was picking off the orange pumpkins and the white ghosts off some of the cookies that were over loaded on one glop of cookie to add it to one that was lacking the little sweet.

We were joking how one baked cookie looked like Siamese twins, because they were interlinked. My friend offered to do surgery to separate them, but I said no! I ended up eating the double cookie later with a glass of milk.

I forgot how much fun baking cookies could be. Unfortunately the two dozen cookies only lasted until last night. I ate the last one. :o( That is a lot of sugar for me to be eating in 4 days, but since I don’t do that very often, it was worth it.

:o)