Do NaNoWriMo

I finished with 53,520 this year. It was a bit touch and go because of new things going on in my life – boyfriend living with me and all. I don’t have access to my computer as much as I have had in the past. It is a good thing and a bad thing, but no matter what, I was able to finish but I put my mind and my fingers too.

Now, on to Nanofimo (National Novel Finishing Month). Yeeehaa!

I didn’t get my outline done as planned for last week, but I did get somewhere with working out my outline on Sunday.

I got about a quarter of my outline done and if I keep up with it, I probably can get it done today 10/27 or tomorrow 10/28.

I need to work on finishing my character charts as well.

Ugh! I have so much to do and November first is only 4 days, 9 hours, 56 minutes, 22 seconds away! Save me!!

I am trying to get ready for Nanowrimo 2009. It was just in the 2nd week in October when I decided on what type of story I was going to write in November. Of course, I wait until the last minute to prepare and pack for the 30 days of writing.

I have started my outline and I should have it finished by the end of this week, but it isn’t looking good as an accomplishment. I shall not be negative, it is just seems so hard to write an outline on a novel I am still very uneducated about. Why do I pick the hard ideas. The deeper ideas that make a person think, think, think and think some more. Ugh!

The American Civil War!

I have still been using Google Notebook, but since it is no longer active, (yet I can still use mine since I have stuff on it though. People that have never used it are unable to have access to it)I have found that Google Docs is very similar to it so I am going to check that out and see how it works.

I have a couple main characters built, but not very solid yet. I still have to find names as well and build the minor characters as well.

Ugh! I don’t know anything about 15 year old girls, but I guess I will have to dig deep into my own teenage years and remember what it was like some how.

I have a place, but not a city or cities I will be using it.

I have my black binder filled with various notes, research papers, etc, as well as I have my steno pad started with ideas and outlines starts.

I have been contemplating Renting-to-own a laptop since I STILL do not have one and I really really want one.

I have always been contemplating the crazying idea of not only writing 50,000 words on this 2009 NaNoWriMo idea, but ALSO writing 50,000 on my 2008 NaNoWriMo idea, which I have not finished. Since I am only working one job now, I think that writing about 4,000 or 5,000 words a day for 30 days would be possible. I do have the time! But do I have the focus!

YES I do. I have a couple motivational songs that have been my moto as I am preparing for my Nano fight with November.

1. Don’t stop believing by Journey
2. Its my life by Bon Jovi
3. Larger then Life by Backstreet Boys
4. Ray of Light by Madonna
5. When you Believe by Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey
6. Unwritten by Natasha_Bedingfield
7. I won’t back down by Tom Petty
8. I want it all by Queen
9. We are the Champions by Queen
10. I believe I can fly by R. Kelly
11. Don’t stop by Michael Jackson
12. Don’t stop until you get enough by Michael Jackson

I have noticed when I listen to these groupings of songs, I am powered up, energized and ready to deal with anything. I have to say that my MP3 library has grown alot since I have been searching for music that inspires me and motivates me to do things.

I am getting ready. At midnight on November 1, 2009, will kick off Nanowrimo running toward my goal! I am so pumped up about this. I just have to get the outline fleshed out better.

I might not be ready, but I am running to win with this!

I started working on my outline, Character bios and a solid plot for my novel for NaNoWriMo 2008.

I am really excited about it this year. I came up with the idea last December, but decided to shelve it so I could use it for this year’s novel. It was actually the month of December that helped me get a bit ready for NaNoWriMo 2008.

I have set up my note book, my activity binder that holds all my notes, character bios, plot statements, things that inspire me to write, etc. Most of all I have almost 30 little inspirational reminders that hopeful will help me write this story. LOL Almost one for everyday of November. I know I will not be able to write down a chapter a day, but each little object will help remind me what I am writing for.

My novel this year is a bit more deeper then last years. I am still trying to finish last years, but I gave up on it for now. It is too late to try to finish it at this point in time. I have to prepare for NaNoWriMo 2008. I think this year, I will learn alot as I write. I am wondering if it is possible that this novel might be a good canidate to be published when I am done. It think that many women could relate to what I am going to write about. I will just have to see. I just hope I can write it with sense of style and depth.

I know November is going to be much much harder for me this year then it was last year. My mother is going to be coming for a five day visit as well, as my time might be taken up spending it with someone. I don’t know at this point, but I know it is going to be hard with working 2 jobs, (one of them retail!) spending time with my mother and spending time with my friends.

I know I can do it.

I started a new thing today. I found it by accident, but I think it is a great thing to be used for writing my novel. It is Google Notebook. I was able to put down the working Title, my plot, some of my Character bios and started an outline and saved it all on Google Notebook. I loved using it because everything is at my fingertips. I can even save particular websites that inspire me or I use for my research of my pending novel. I would recommend “Google Notebook” for anyone that is trying to write a novel. A person can be surprised that something so simple is capable of doing.

I really need to get my outline done. I haven’t even started it. I just know I will have about 30 chapters. So I put done 30 lines. LOL And that is far as I have gotten. I hope it comes to me soon. I have only 24 more days until NaNoWriMo! Ack!

I will try to jot down a bit of an outline tonight if I can! I need to!

I showed all my friends and they were really excited for me. It looks really nice. I can’t wait to find a place to hang it up.

Now, I just need to finish the darn novel!

And I did it. I won and completed this seemingly impossible goal!!

Yeah for me!

I just can’t believe that I DID do it. I never knew I had it in me.

:o)

I went to the Emergency room yesterday morning. I was in a lot of pain and I knew something wasn’t right. To find out that it was just my gall bladder. I was having a gall bladder attack, which I had never had one before, but I found out from my mother all my aunts and her have had them plus some of them have had theirs taken out.

It was very frightening for me and the pain was really intense. I am feeling better right now, but still in a bit of pain, but I can function better then I could yesterday. I have a high pain tolorance, but this was something I couldn’t handle on my own.

Good news is that I have already come up with another idea for a novel and I am going to nurture it -outline, character bios, particulars of the story line, through out the year and use it for next year’s Nanowrimo. I will continue to finish this years Nanowrimo novel as well as maybe by February start one of other novels that have been collecting dust for years as if I am doing a February version of Nanowrimo.

I came up with the new idea for the novel on Tuesday when I was working my second job. I was thinking about how horrible this holiday was going to be for me. I thought how I might start a new tradition for make it more joyful for me. And BOOM, I came up with the idea and then the really neat title.

I am really surprised that I have been inspired so soon after Nano!

and don’t feel like it. I have found that writing is a way for me to escape from the pain that I am feeling. I am allowed to imerse myself into the lifes and the struggles of my characters, realizing how many of them are my very own.

The dreams, the failures, the desires and the pain, are all little bits and pieces of my own life worked into various characters.

The most painful part of my novel to write was the piece I wrote in dedication for my dearheart and the loss that scars his heart. I painstaking wrote it into my novel so that I was able to show in my words, how much his pain touched me. I know that my words can not change the past, or right any wrongs, but I hope that with my writing, I was able to reflect the love forever more in the only way that my heart could express: my silent written word.

As I wrote, I also reflected on the various emotions that my characters went through. Anger, envy, greed, and pride were just a few, and how those emotions affected my life as well.

When I thought out this novel in 2001 as a writing exercise from a friend. I never thought this simple words “I want you to write a story based on these words “Spirits in the Wind” ” would affect me as it has this whole month. Even thought I had the particulars down regarding the story, I never knew how much deeper the meaning and the various plots that would take hold as I wrote.

As I researched and wrote, I realized, that I was no longer just writing a novel, but I was telling a story that had been waiting to be release from my crowded mind. I never took the time to allow it to come to fruitation, until now. I really didn’t think I could do it.

It might not be publishable material, but I know that now that I am capable to writing and finishing a major project such as writing a novel.

Now, I just have to keep writing until the story is finished and then work on correcting all the flaws in it.

And then, maybe, just maybe, I might see if I want to get it published. It is very scary, because I was never good in English and I have never shared any of my writings with others before. I am going to try.

And keep working on this project until the story has been fully told and captured on paper and is no longer just my escapable dream.

:o)

Why aren’t I having any joy in this? I should be happy but I am not.

I don’t mean to rain on everyone’s parade, but this huge hurdle wasn’t as cheerful as I thought it would be.

I was so dedicated to this goal, yet now that I have achieved it, I feel so very numb. I have been working on my novel and typing it up since 3:00 a.m this morning, before my dearheart texted message me to drop the bomb on me by ending our relationship. Between crying and just allowing my fingers and my mind to take over, Everything is such a blur.

There. I did it. I am not joyful about it. Actually my heart is broken and I just want to crawl under a rock and die.

I am sure once I have gotten over the blow to my heart, I might celebrate and bask in the yellow glory that is Nanowrimo, but for now, I am just going to go and bury myself in my blankets and pillows and cry myself to sleep.

I did what I promised myself to do. I wonder if I did it just out of subborness because it seemed such a hard goal to achieve. 50,892 words seems so unbelievable knowing that I still have about 8 more chapters to go.

Can’t even share this accomplishment with my dearheart. No that it matters any way, anymore.

Sigh. . .