Today I heard from a friend via Facebook. I haven’t talked to her in over a year. I asked her the usual catching up questions, but her response raised my hackles. She’s doing Teach for America, which I think is great. But she said she’s thinking about getting her Ph.D. and went on and on about how she can get into the “highest ranked” schools and all I could think about was how it should be me. That her boyfriend and I were always helping her in grad school and that many of us were concerned she wouldn’t even graduate because she was skipping class and exams and behind on papers.
I hate how I compare myself to others. It’s a trait I learned from my parents and I can’t seem to shake it.