stop being so sad

Not sure what to do with this one. I got a new job and hate it. I don’t really hear from friends anymore. One moved away a while back and has stopped calling/returning calls. Another met a guy and never wants to spend time away from him. I met up with an acquaintance but it has yet to amount to much of a friendship.

I suddenly feel like doing something of which I’ve always dreamed but was too afraid to ever pursue. But I’m three months into this awful job and I’m not sure I could leave gracefully. So yeah, kinda sucking at not being sad.

I’m struggling with the fact that antidepressants may be necessary for the rest of my life.

For the last month and a half, I have been really happy (save one really bad week). I’m going to wait a couple more weeks before I check this one off my list.

I struggle with depression, but over the years, I have learned to keep a lot of that in check. Right now I’m drowning under some really big projects: completing my masters degree and cleaning my house (I hoard and I can’t even walk through my own house or use any of the rooms because they are full of…things, just random things).

I truly believe these things are keeping me in a state of misery. I’m finally trying to tackle them, one by one. This weekend, I’m trying to finish a draft of my masters project.