figure out what I want to do in life.

I really feel that my heart is in the social work field. Everytime I tell someone that I am going to be a foster care worker, I get this feeling of excitement inside. It’s amazing. I want to be the person that kids look at and say that if it hadn’t been for me, their life would have went no where. I want to change kids lives, show them the compassion and love that they didn’t get from the people they need it from most. I want to help people get their kids back, if they truly try to change of course. I want to be a social worker. Bottom line!

So, I am almost 100% positive that I am supposed to change what I want to do in life. Yet, I don’t think I want to check this goal off because I need to know 100%, not almost know. I had a dream about a week ago that I was a social worker, then the next day, I went to the mall to buy some stuff and I overheard three different conversations about social work (one was about DCFS, another one the lady was a social worker, and the third was about the abused kids in the world). Now, is that now strange or what?! My aunt likes to call them “God winks” and I think I’m beginning to believe her after all.

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I bought a book from the bookstore at school about social work and I am eager to read it! =] I really think that this is what I’m supposed to go into because I think I would have such a passion for it.. a passion that I might not have in teaching.

Ever since I was a sophomore in high school I have wanted to teach. Different grades, yes, but still teach. But now, after declaring my major as English, I’m not sure if it’s what I want to do anymore. For some reason, my heart is being pulled into the social work direction. Before teaching, social work is what I wanted to do, and I personally, think that I could do it well. But at the same time, I think that I could teach English well too. Part of me just wants to stick with teaching since it has been a goal of mine for a while, but the other part says no because what if I go to school for 6 years for that and then end up hating it? I’m actually really scared right now.