Fall in love

Im 19 years old
and my whole life my approach to relationships has been,
sex first,
date later.
I’v finally met someone over the last few weeks that I actually look forward to hanging out with
without thinking about the sexual state of our relationship.
I don’t feel the need to hit on this person.
I just want to talk and hang out and get to know them.
This means the world to me, I have never felt this way about anyone.
I guess I lost hope that there was anyone from my planet out there.
Anyone that I had this much intellectually in common with.
But I found him and I hope he feels the same way.
And maybe he just wants to be friends…
but regardless, I know how I feel, and if nothing happens between us I would be ok with that.
Because just meeting this person has given me hope and has shown me that there ARE people out there like me…
I just have to keep looking.
:)
Thank you universe.
I am so greatful.

I’m sticking to this new rule.
I realized that all my relationships have brought me
this same feeling in my gut.
This same feeling in my heart.
Every time I think I have found the one…
Same feeling.

No more. I still have this feeling and I want rid of it.
This is not a feeling of Love, I don’t even know you.
This is a feeling of addiction and desperation.
I must learn from my mistakes and not follow the same path.
Take a risk, learn to love in other ways, because this way
is
not
Is not
how I want to feel loved.
Project and Provide.
-Sam

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I’ve looked at clouds that way

But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I’ve looked at clouds from both sides now

From up and down, and still somehow
It’s cloud illusions I recall
I really don’t know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev’ry fairy tale comes real
I’ve looked at love that way

But now it’s just another show
You leave ‘em laughing when you go
And if you care, don’t let them know
Don’t give yourself away

I’ve looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It’s love’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know love at all

Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say “I love you” right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I’ve looked at life that way

But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads, they say I’ve changed
Well something’s lost, but something’s gained
In living every day

I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all
I’ve looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It’s life’s illusions I recall
I really don’t know life at all