Practice Celibacy

So it’s been over one month since I actively decided to be celibate. I mean, I’ve gone without sex for over a month before, and it’s not like I’m even really thinking about sex, but for the past couple of weeks, I’ve been having sex dreams! In fact, in the past week, I have woken up three times actually having an orgasm. I don’t know. This is pretty unusual for me, as normally this only happens to me once or twice a year. I don’t feel all deprived or anything, so why the sex dreams?

I guess I decided to start being celibate about a month ago. I had just broken up with a guy I had been seeing for a couple of months, nothing serious, and the following night I slept with an exboyfriend. I regretted doing this, and realized that at times I have punished myself subconsciously by sleeping with people when it can have a negative impact on my life. In this case, I was upset about how I broke up with the guy I had been seeing. Also, I find that when I first start dating someone, after I sleep with them, it’s like I can no longer see the real them, I can only see what I want to see in that person. So right now I’m not dating anyone, but when I do, I’m going to remain celibate for quite some time. I want to really get to know them first before sex complicates things. So I am on Day 27 of celibacy. So far, no problem.