Be in touch with my Mom more

I am doing it…calling more often. I was very concerned the money thing would come up again. I told her that I felt hesitant to call her because of money that I still owe her. Just feel bad—-she insisted that I not let that get in the way of calling, yet it always comes up…with my new job instead of sending her $25 a week, I owe her $1200 and I want to send that all to her by end of March…wouldn’t that be great for me and a great surprise for her. What a block of my shoulders too. I can do this with my new job…THANK YOU GOD!

Called my Mom today to tell her the good news about the new job I got today. Wanted to share and just talk. Of course the money thing came up…it does in every converstation. It makes me not want to call. With this new job I can get that issue off my back once and for all. We were in a business venture and lost our shirts. She came up with a figure and now I owe her $1,200.00. I am going to save that money and finally get this business loss nightmare behind me. It has been almost 15 years.

Called my Mom tonight. Just to say hi and talk about nothing. But the fact I owed her some money still—-came up at the end of the conversation. I am paying her $25 weekly from my check and don’t have extra money right now. I hesitate to call her because I feel bad not having extra money to send and don’t want to keep saying it so, I avoid calling and talking. Guilt I guess…so, called anyway cause I should. Wished I didn’t and don’t want to again. Just want to enjoy a call for once…just a call. She never calls me.