well, maybe the “anything” bit of this was too far spreading. i suppose in a way i did accomplish something. i’ve now checked off the “feel pretty” goal. however, that seems like something short of accomplishment… big surprise. i mean, let’s be real. it’s nice to feel less than unattractive, but it really isn’t going to get you anywhere. so, here i am with checking pen in hand and still nothing to show for it… ah such is life. cest la vie!
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i’ve never been a particularly under-accomplished person. as a child i was well-behaved and mannered. as a teenager i stayed out of trouble and got good grades. as a college student i maintained a higher than average gpa, went to class like a good little girl, and never got arrested. however, as an adult, i really have absolutely nothing to show for any of that “model behavior”. i have 2 college degrees, have traveled some (enough to know there’s more to this world than hometowns and office jobs), have survived living alone in new york city, and yet i still call indiana home knowing it will never be enough for me. i still work for a company with less than 50 employees. i still have no health benefits, sick days, savings, 401K, or a plan to get any of it. i still don’t own a home. i still can’t commit to ANYTHING! i still dream big and act small. and i’m tired of all that. i’m tired of being the smart girl who acts like an idiot with no direction. so, i need to hold myself accountable to do SOMETHING. and that’s what i’m going to do. i don’t care what it is. open a savings account and put in $20 per check. travel somewhere i’ve never been before. eat alone in a sit-down restaurant. design something and actually produce and sell it. organize my house/finances/life/car/bathroom/whatever. I JUST DON’T CARE! the point is i feel like i’ve done absolutely NOTHING in the past year or two, and that is driving me insane. i’m the only one who can change it.
