improve my financial situation

I don’t know why I wrote it like that. I am losing my mind. OK, so big hairy undertaking – dealing with UI. Oh, that was fun! let’s hope I don’t fuck it up again. I would so much prefer not going into that hell hole again.

Onto hairy undertaking number 2. To be followed by H.U. #3 and H.U. #4. Hopefully that will be it for H.U.s in the forseeable future.

gotta start this one over. job go bye-bye… many expenses still… lots of dough in the bank but it’s all for home repair. we’ve had a streak of stuff breaking down – first the garage door, then the water heater, the washing machine, the loft collapse, and several basement floods. so frustrating. some of it was probably preventable, not sure…

still just trying to get my head out of my ass but this spring I will get back on the money making wagon… things always pick up in the spring.

Well, I must admit my main focus when I got my new job was:
1) being able to buy quilting fabric and take quilting classes freely without any “guff” from JW.
2) being able to take vacations again
3) NOT fighting over money or being humiliated over money issues anymore.

OK, so now that I’ve gotten SOME relief from these items, I must say I really do want to be responsible and start saving more money. OK, first we have to fix the roof, buy a fence, and pay off the credit card, blady blady blady, but eventually we should be able to start socking away most of it. Especially if I want to go back to school or in case I can’t keep this job forever because of the travel, etc. or whatever – it would be wise to build up another nest egg. Hopefully, we’ll both end up making more moolah and things will loosen up more at that point. For now I really do want to just get out from under this cloud so JW can relax a little more. zoinks.

Money woes seem to be over or at least at-bay. Never really did come up with a budget, much to my shame and criticism. Have money coming to me from: Char, C*MTA, WSgroup, etc.

Still have TONS to sell on ebay. Not getting anywhere with that.

OK, progress – I am meeting tomorrow with my client and will have some more dough coming in soon! Also can invoice C*MTA for the last newsletter I did.

- need to ask JW (AGAIN) to give me the budget info. and
- need to start keeping track of things somewhere!! where??? why does this boggle me so much? I suck. :[

KILLS me that this sounds oh so close to what John was saying, but: joining WW the other day made me realize that it puts things in so much perspective to focus on what you have and have good visual cues to tell you where you’re at as you’re spending it and how you’re spending it. This is what I need to do with my money… Say I gotta control $300 of X for the month, $300 at the top of a column of a spreadsheet. Everyday you gotta enter in what came out of that category and review at the end of the week. It’s all there in full color to see. I SO HATE DOING THIS!!! Why? I’m not sure.

So painful to even consciously acknowledge this!! AGH!!!!