for the party last week.
The time I did it before that was right before I broke up with Freya.
I usually do it when I’m going to make a change.
I don’t think I’m doing any changing though lately besides living my life the way I WANT TO.
Though doing it brought back a lot of memories of me uncertainly digging through old mementos and listening to The Open Door by Evanescence…
and her not showing up for skating the night after
and the aftermath
and it slowly becoming a mess as I became a wreck.
My hermit crab dying.
Me scrounging it back together (but not cleaned) to get a new one after I started dating Sarah.
It’s funny.
She was the only girlfriend I’ve had that came over often enough to even give a fuck about my room.
But I always was too embarassed to show her.
It was too boring, too messy, too gross.
This time I hope to keep it in order five months plus.
Here’s finger’s crossed.
