Have a baby

and I’m talking years this time. Husband decided to leave me recently because he decided his job was more important to him than our marriage. I’m fine though. I just need to put my life together and someday a guy will come into my life that will be worth making babies with.

so I told mom yesterday that hubby and I are officially trying for a baby. I didn’t want to announce it at first but I’m glad I did.

So hubby and I mention it to one another. We talk about it. We fool around with the idea. We talk some more. We pray about it. We start to seriously consider it. And then right when we’re about to finalize….
We chicken out, stop talking about it for a little while, and then start all over again. So I have no idea when this is going to be, but I have a strong feeling that it’s going to be much closer than our original plan.

Hubby and I decided to start trying in about a year, after he finishes sub school and such. My career can wait, and honestly I’m ok with that. I was raised around a lot of stay-at-home moms and to me they seemed a lot happier not having to balance their work and home lives. Besides, we’ve been married for almost two years, we’ve had plenty of time just to ourselves. Both of us are ready for this next step and three to five years from now just doesn’t seem like the wait we want to take.

Hubby and I are talking about this. I really want to go through Culinary School and become a chef but I don’t want to put this plan off for another 3+ years. We’ve been married for two years now, the relationship is ready, we’re ready, but on the other hand I’m only 21 and have a lot that I have yet to do with my life.