They say that you should forgive and not forget, but I find it very hard to forgive someone when I remember every day what they did and how my life would be so much more different if they hadn’t done the crime in the first place.
There are a lot of words said by a lot of people that were suppose to be close to me, that have caused some wounds that just can’t seem to heal. But I know… that is I’m every going to properly grow, I have to forgive and forget.
I guess I just need one last stroll down memory lane and relive a few of these issues to properly say good-bye to them. And while doing that, maybe I can regain the piece of myself that I left behind… like a crumb marking the way through my dark forest of memories.
Something needs to change. And I can feel that the time is wipe for another huge change. Just how and when, I’m not sure. But one thing is certain… life has not been boring for me. Not since I got married… not since I got together with my husband. The last 5 (going on 6) years have been one crazy trip. Not always the best, but never dull or boring.
He is my rock and my anchor, without him… I don’t know where I would be. Every day I am thankful for him. He is my future… and my past is drifting farther and farther behind.
Blessings,
Shadowchilde
