Yesterday when I met him,he just hugged me.We had food,which was needed as I was broke and starving.Then we chilled and watched a movie with friends,something about a child genius in chess.I love the scene where the lady goes “He has trouble making friends” the father goes,”This child has a gift,and is better at something both you and I will be at anything in our entire lives.When you can appreciate that,then we will have a conversation.”Epic.
We woke up in the morning and frankly I was too snug to be able to make it out of the bed.When we finally went to watch the match the next day,he brought me a sandwich from the stadium canteen.You know,he is like my wonderwall(yes,yes oasis).I cant feel at unease when he is around.
I swear I wanna marry him.
But he wont let me, doesn’t believe in it.Yesterday we were talking and he mentioned “Yeah will be interesting to see the guy you will marry one day” and it hurt.Trust me when I say this,I know he loves me.And the care and respect I get from him is just too much.But he always puts it off.And it doesn’t help I am falling bad for him.
I know its at least a decade before I should be worrying about it,and about at least 6 plus years for him.But still,I can see myself being with someone else,but its always with him in the back of my mind.I feel sometimes that,if this relationship ever ends(hope not),I will never bother dating someone else unless if I wanna be with them,and they have intentions like that for a special someone.However,if our relationship ends I wanna spend a year writing it down,coz its the best time I ever had.
Yesterday,since its been a year since I wore heels,my feet were killing me on the way back home.So when we were finally alone,and after my “I swear I am not drunk” friend knocked over soup on me and my friend next to me and I took countless tissues to wipe the mess off,we were going home,and I asked him to carry me back.And he simply did.So,at 4 am in the night,I am in my dress,and boots and having my boyfriend give me a piggy back ride till my home,with all the good memories of us flashing before in my head.
He said he is pretty sure I am enjoying this,and I was like “I am recording this in my memory forever,the guy who I have the biggest crush on, give me a piggy-back ride back home at 4 am.”And I told him I loved him.And he kissed me and said he did too.I swear,he changes the way I look at fairy tales.
He did not let me sleep in his room,as he wanted me to make it to the bank today.We never end up doing anything except get all over each other when we are together.Its really thoughtful.Even right now as I am writing this,my heart is beating like in early teens.I am really like 20,but its not like my first relationship in a long shot,yet this guy makes me weak on the knees,like no one in the past has.And trust me,I had some great relationships.
Well,sometimes you gotta let go the best thing you ever thought you will have,to let better things come to you.For me that’s my baby.Who keeps redefining love for me.
Lord,let it last.