So,an update on this really busy month.
I have joined up a company and I am still in the process of learning it,going through ups and downs,admittedly,the sitting 9-5 job routine gets on my nerve,and i havent been able to exercise atall except on weekends
I wanna carry this forward and use it as a platform to base architecture from,i got enrolled in something here,but it is not exactly architecture,which leads me into dismay,i miss my nights shifting in architecture,my friends,my love life,and a little distant dream that is away from the boredom i face here.But the great thing about challenges is,they make you who you are.And I am just trying to escape.
my life is as perfect as it could be financially,it is just that I am lonely.I miss my man,he is soo far away,and it gets hard not to get angry sometimes.People underestimate how much even physical presence of a person drives a relationship.I miss snuggling like a baby misses human touch.And then my friends back there are leaving to their lives as well.It feels a deconstruction of a world I was fond of.And that makes me sad.But as long as I understand it,I will make it back.
I am having a loss of passion these couple of days,partially because i rarely see sunlight,and getting accustomed to the rich food,kinda taking life granted.But i believe,i will make it.I dont know how,i dont know when,but i will.
I know this is the only way out,as for my studies,there might be more,and there is nothing i want but to pursue architecture.But life is being rough on me.And I have to take some hard choices.Right now,its not the world I want to have,but it is the best world i cant get.So for now,this month,this moment,I am grateful.