find a positive solution to every negative problem:

ok..so here it goes.. the solution to this i think is to talk to someone i dont know very well each day.

i mean, that would be 365 different conversations.. i need to figure out what i can talk to these people about.. maybe learn a few ice breakers.. i am a deep person and i have strong deep relationships.. i dont have surface relationships.. so i really need to work more on talking to someone new each day.

found another key.. my goal was to “become a morning person” the key to this goal is going to sleep earlier.

i cannot expect my self to become a morning person unless i go to bed earlier. i also need to limit the number of hours that i do sleep. i cannot sleep more than 8 hours. if i sleep more than 8 hours, then im screwed because i just get tired for the entire day.

just thought of a reverse alarm. instead of setting an alarm to wake up at an specific time, what if i set the alarm to go off when i have completed 8 hours of sleep.

i would then have a reason to wake up. the reason to wake up would be the fact that i have finished my 8 hours of sleep..

would that work????

i feel lonely at work.. my office is adjacent to the main office.. and i feel isolated. everyone is in the main office.. 3 people are in the 2nd office.. and i have my own.

the positive of this is the fact that i have my own office. i can listen to my own music whenever i want. i can close the door and be alone.. but there are times when i want interaction.

problem is i am not too good at small talk and i can keep a conversation going for only a short amount of time.

when i dont know what to say, i think i panic and i try to get away from the conversation.

this will be my “bad thought” inventory bucket.

how do i turn this into a positive?

just discovered this.. being lazy is due to not being motivated enough. if you find the motivation, you stop being lazy.

instead of dwelling on the fact that i can be lazy, i need to find a way to increase my motivation.

motivation is the key.

laziness is the door.