lose 40 pounds

So far, I’ve lost about 12 pounds. I can’t really see a noticeable difference, physically, but I guess I’ll have to wait until I lose a little bit more?

12/40

Edit: Oh, which reminds me! Since I’ve already hit the goal weight I set for 2 1/2 weeks from now, I guess I’ll set a new one? 5 more pounds by February 25th. :)

I’ve lost 7 pounds! I would like to lose at least five more by the time we go to thespian conference.

:)

7/40

It’s mostly because I’m so concentrated on schoolwork right now, what with exams coming up so quickly. :(

I don’t even want to weight myself. I probably weigh, like, 285 thousand pounds, now. Gross.

I would love to just… lose 40 of them. Like they get up and walk away. Beautiful. :)

Because I KNOW that I would be really pretty if I just lost weight. I’m not… degrading enough to think that I’m ugly. But if I’d just… I dunno. I’ll try harder. It will come true.

And this is one of the reasons why—I’m spending a week in Las Vegas during the summer between 11/12 grade , so it’s like the first week of July or something like that of 2009. I went there, like, summer between 9/10th grade and I was the fatty on the strip. Are you kidding me? No one likes to see fatties in Vegas. It just doesn’t happen. And BESIDES—the shopping in Vegas is… ugh. I want everything. Once Christmas is over I’m going to start saving up for Vegas so I can buy NICE SMALL CLOTHES and come back at the beginning of senior year and be a FUCKING HOTTIE IN SMALL CLOTHES FROM VEGAS. I just refuse to be anything other than skinny come the summer time. I refuse. I’m starting over. Now.

And it was delicious.

But it’s got to stop.

I’m a very unhealthy person. And I AM quite chunky, but I don’t think of myself as being “fat”. Even by other peoples’ standards, I don’t think that I am “fat”. I could just lose some weight.

For… what, 220ish pounds?... I’m not THAT big. A lot of it really is muscle. So I’ve resolved to go back to 180 pounds and see where I stand.

So…

No more sugar fixes at the store.
No more splurging at restaurants.
No more school food.
No more vending machines.

And I’m going to start exercising slowly, because in the past, big jumps have never proven effective with me, because I never do them.

So I’m going to resolve to run for at least one hour every week. Eventually, I’m going to bump up to two, and then three.

I can do this.

Seven pounds!
Seven pounds, seven pounds, seven pounds!!

Only 73 more left to go… lol.

Only because I’m starting to think 80 would be, err, unhealthy, I’m going to change this goal a little bit.

I’m going to go for 40 first, and then decide what to do from there.

SO:

7/40. : )