Read my Bible every day

I was looking at the entries I made on this 2 years ago and I decided not to delete this one. I haven’t been as faithful to this goal over the past 2 years. A lot has gone on and while He has been a part of my life and forever in my heart… For almost the last year His words have began collecting dust on the nightstand. Life has been covered in this haze. Every day slips by full of these negative feelings and I have to wonder where that feeling of gratitude has gone. When did I stop feeling blessed about all the things I have. Was it when life became easier, when a couple of my most desired prayers came true? When he delivered me from the life I once had that was full of stress, struggles and sadness? What kind of daughter am I to Him?

It’s times like this… when I feel like this… that I am so thankful for His love. I can go running back and know that His arms are wide open waiting to embrace me.

I have been keeping at this and it’s getting to the point where I can’t lie down to sleep until I have read. I’ll lay thinking unable to sleep. I’ve been taking a half an hour to an hour a night and reading. It’s made some small changes so far. I’m thinking more before I speak and act and I seem to be more tuned in to that inner voice. The best thing is that He is always on my mind. I’ve always thought of Him, but I had times where it would be weeks without giving Him a thought. I didn’t realize how much I missed being aware of Him. I’ve began talking to Him more, too. This goal and growing in Christ are intertwined…I’m wondering why I set them as seperate goals, but maybe it is good that I have…

It seems that the perect time for me to be able to read anything is right before bed. The kids are asleep and the house is quiet and I can actually focus on what I am reading enough to reflect and hear the words. I began this about a week ago. I can’t say I have been perfect at it, but that is why it is a goal of mine. I never want to make excuses to not read.