remember that “Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out

and I got to thinking, I’ve been letting soooooooo many things get in the way of my life – my weight, my appearence, my low self esteem and many other issues, but seriously in my last moments would I really be thing “God, I should have lost more weight when I was alive, or I should have worried more about my stretch marks”. Not likely. I’d probably regret not doing something that I really wanted too. So from tomorrow I going to try and not let these things bother me as much (which is pretty difficult in my school environment), but I’m going to give it a shot.

Sorry for the unusually long and morbid post.

you would like to know that i am officially drunk for the first time! I have learnt that I am a v.happy drunk who like to repeat things over and over to get the point accross and I seem to have lost about an hour. Anyway roll on the happy times!

One of my friends were asked to wrtie a short autobiography as part of a writing course thing, and this got me thinking that i wouldn’t have v.much interesting stuff to write if i were doing it. Past the age of about 14 i’ve been REALLY boring, this was made worse as my friend had her nipple pierced at the age of 14, has a tatoo that her parents dont know about and has done other really crazy stuff. I so need to get out more.

from the gorgeous Colin Farrell from his cameo in scrubs -

“Lads, you’ll sleep enough when you’re dead and buried. You have to get out on the streets. You have to talk to a stranger. Drink a beer for breakfast. Take the ugliest girl home from the party. “

been doing this recentely by saying/doing things that i probably shouldn’t but did after thinking “You know what F* it” which I think is what this goal is all about.