Put God First

I stumbled upon this gem today.

This is going to be a long one.
God talks to me every day.
Yup, every day.
Alot of people would do anything for this privileged, but, I, for the longest time hated the thought of just doing what God asked of me.
And when I say God talks to me, I mean that God Instills a conviction in me. A conviction so strong that my heart and soul would give everything to complete what God asked of me. But my mind, Oh, my mind would do anything to stop me, and of course my body did what my mind told it to. The thing I hated the most was the fact that God would never ask me to do anything that I couldn’t complete; Oh, this fact burned with the stench of failure, every time I let a moment pass me and I didn’t do what God asked of me. But I, at the time, leaned my ladder on the world, so I couldn’t do what God asked of me because I would be thought of as strange or weird.
Then God gave me a wake up call and I came to my senses. When I put my hope in God I became less frustrated, everything became easier, and I felt genuinely happy.
I could leave it at this and my story would be just fine, but I can’t.
As a child I almost always did as God asked of me.
God told me something, before I turned to the world, that for which I thought I could never forgive Him. And if I never forgave God, what he told me would never come to pass.
What He said was so hard for me to take, so very hard.
God told me that I (I’m getting a knot in my stomach just writing this) was going to follow him, do what he asked of me, and and and was going to bring a giant flock to the Lord.
Not so bad.
But one would stir many against my God and I would be persecuted and killed, but not die.
I didn’t figure out what that last part meant for a long long time.
But I know what the first part meant and I was terrified; I don’t want to be killed.
Not until I came to my senses and accepted Gods words did God reveal the good side of His request of me (somewhere in Revelations).
I feel Great and I am currently working on Putting God First every day.
So do what God wants you to, every time.