learn to be alone

Ok so if you see my list I have “learn to be alone” as #1 and “have an extraordinary love relationship” as #2. Is this incompatible? Not at all. The truth is that UNTIL I find myself in an extraordinary relationship I want to learn to be by myself and be ok and happy with it. I don’t want to settle, I don’t want to continue with the chain dating. Does that make sense? I hope so.

Even though I declared today that I want a relationship, the truth is that I also want to learn how to live without one and be ok with that too. I feel that for over 12 yrs I have not been alone for more than a couple of weeks, maybe a month or so. I’m terrified of being bored and not having someone to share my life. I live alone and its a challenge to want to stay in an empty place day after day.

I know myself. It’s easy for me to start dating again. Yet, I feel like it’s time I took a break and dealt with solitude.