live for Christ

My friend says that she can see God has big plans for me. I’ve never seen it. I’ve never been sure if there’d be enough evidence to convict me if I were accused of being a Christian in a court of law (assuming it were a crime) but apparently there’s plenty. Mind you, by my own confession, I’d be guilty but assuming they didn’t take my confession… Anyhow, I’m starting a bible study/fellowship/worship group at my school. Any ideas?

I was baptized!!! December 10, 2006.

I feel like school and home are impeding this so much. I feel like I could be doing such a better job and that my devotions suck lately (I’m so worried in the mornings that I’ll miss the bus that I can’t sit still for 2 minutes let alone 15 or more to do my devotions. I keep forgetting to do them when I get home from school too) and my prayer life has been nearly nonexistent. I try to remember to say grace before I eat and to pray before bed but I’m so tired that I just kind of say “Thank You for this day, thank You for all You’ve given me, please keep my loved ones safe, help me to live for You, and forgive my sins.” That, to me, is a pretty insufficent prayer.

I need to reconnect to life outside of school and atheists (aka my family) but I can’t seem to on a daily basis. It’s the weekend now and I intend to spend time with God, alone, but I don’t know if I’ll get distracted or be able to get away outside somewhere (it’s so much easier for me to get close to God out in His Creation). I’ve got to find a way…

I’ve got such a better understanding of this. I wish I could give you an explanation but I really can’t. I’m changed and it’s through Him and Him alone. Praise be to the Lord our God and may He bless and keep you!

I decided to explore other sects of the Christian faith so I went with my friend to Mass this morning. We got there halfway through the service and I’m not sure what my stance is on it yet but I’m going back next Sunday so I may know more then. The Sunday after that I think I’m going to see if I can go with my grandma to her Catholic church but it’s not exactly Catholic. I guess it’s like a liberal Catholicism. It’s worth a shot. I’ve wanted to explore the churches in my area for some time and I think I’m ready to do that now.

I’m trying to figure out the type of life Christ wants us to lead as Christians (I’m protestant by the way and I use that in the general term to mean not catholic lol). It’s difficult. Should we go out and tell everyone we encounter about Him or should we simply live the way He says and hope they follow our ways? If it’s the second how far do we take that? No dating, no dances, no normal teenage things? Or do we simply be modest and pray and read our Bibles and watch our tongues and our tempers?

I don’t want your opinions. I want only the Truth from God. Bible passages and opinions based upon them (with the passage quoted) are welcomed, personal opinions based on teachings of those who’ve told you something and not on the Bible are not for this entry.