talk to my dad

I’ve called a few different numbers and can’t get through… maybe I should send a postcard.

So I called before i moved and I didn’t get an answer. I haven’t really thought about it much since I called, but I did think maybe I should write a letter. I know he’s gotten on with his life, which is good and the main reason I want to call is to say I love you and i haven’t forgotten about you. I can do that in a letter too. Maybe I’ll do that. Short, simple, and better.

This “talk to my dad” is now, a connect/contact dad and get over it all ready. :)

I’ve been trying to think about it from his perspective… it got me really worried and nervous. but after an hour of thinking to make a post that i wasn’t sure about, i called. no answer! hahaha! just my luck.

years and no answer, no answering machine, no nothing. it actually makes me laugh. maybe because I haven’t slept and it’s way early am for me and not what I’d think was late pm for him. I’ll talk to my other half about it more tomorrow, I have something to say, and try again tomorrow maybe earlier and with caller ID on…

funny thoughts of his dislike of call waiting, “If I’m talking to someone, why would I put them on hold for someone I don’t know? no, call waiting is so you can do that.” :) “I don’t need an answering machine, if I’m not there, I can’t talk, I’m out, I’m busy”

It was a time before cell phones, caller ID and text-ing, when answering machines were common, but not in every phone and not in our phone with a retractable antenna.

I’ve been estranged from my father for near 12 years. The last 16 months, I’ve wished I could talk to him. A few months ago, I Googled him and found a phone number. I would like to call him in the next few days, there are things I never thought I’d go my whole life without sharing with him. I know I’d be calling for selfish reasons, I think he hasn’t called me for self-less reasons, so I should call. If I’m wrong, and he doesn’t want to talk to me, at least I tried and I hope that there will be enough time to say ‘I love you and I’m sorry.’ before the call would end.