be more graceful

Jim took me to the mall on my birthday so I could look for a dress. I found an xoxo dress I think it is that we both agreed looked really good. He says it looks good on me, and I love the colors and style. It’s missing some sequins but I got a dicount. It was $70 I told him I would pay half and gave him $40, it ended up being cheaper and he just had to pay about $16! I really have no where to hang and protect it, and I am trying so hard to lose weight, I need my belly to flatten more until it looks ok. If I get to the size 3 or less I want to again (if I don’t I might as well kill myself) it won’t fit because it is a 7. But I guess I need a good fitting corset since all mine are too small now and DON’T HOLD ANYTHING BACK. I have to get it dry cleaned before I wear it. It said social dress but it is formal looking and I never go anywhere nice but now I have somethign to wear when I do. I need shoes to wear with it, I saw some black lacy heels at Wetseal but no size 8 and I cannot walk in heels at all I don’t know why! My feet are wide and it hurts and stuff and they just don’t fit right. Also, I wanted to find a red dress to wear on out anniversary/ Valentine’s Day. I tried some on but none of them looked good. Just a little red dress. There is one on Heavy Red but it’s $90 I think and it’s hard buying something like that online and not knowing how it fits and feels. But yeah, I have a fancy dress now, and not one that I got a Charlotte Russe that is cheap and cheaply made.