Cure my obsessive compulsive disorder

It would be so nice if I could just come home and lay down and go right to bed. But I get home and it’s hours before I can do that, I have to shower and do all this other stuff. And it’s winter and I can;t wear a winter jacket because I have to wash it every time I use it so it seems better just to avoid that….

I want to own and wear nice things!!!! And do what I want and need to without these ridiculous constrictions!!!! I JUST WANT TO LIVE AND LOVE and not have this problem interfere AT ALL with either!

PLEASE I NEED THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING!! I am in agaony and desperation. I cannot live like this much anymore, and I know it’s something you are stuck with most of your life but there has got to be a way. I am hopeless it has already destroyed my life and killing the relationships and new things brought into it. I have tried everything I do not know what to do. I want to get more ect therapy or surgery that is all I know of!