get over my fear of death

To bring more to this subject since i have read the rest of the comments:
I have such a wonderful life! I have a great boyfriend that loves me and the best mates…but that still doesn’t stop me.
Every few months i used to go into a full out panic attack! Couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think, couldn’t stop shaking. My first one i am told was when i was very young so its been going on all my life! I’m still young but now its getting more often nearly every day i fight to keep my head on top of things, i can’t sleep, i can’t eat and the only time i feel a bit at peace is when i am drinking but i refuse to live my life in fear and drunk!

I would love to not have a panic attack about this, or watch a really scary movie and not have to have a day off to just breathe!