become a pornstar

Well, I know it’s been awhile. The darkside of my fantasy has taken over. Since 1 week before Xmas, I’ve been dancing. On Dec 28th, Jacklyn found out I’ve continued, and our relationship has ended. On Dc 29th, I went to Ft Lauredale to celebrate New Years, but as usual alone (well, with family actually).

Anyways, enough depression, Januay 14th, I was on the runway again. Louise was showing me how to pole dance. I like her alot, just her drg habit keeps us from being close. Danielle told me that it’s like a prerequisite you do drugs. I myself, refuse to, although I’e been alienated by the others because they think I’m a snotty bitch now.

I will no cave in to this pessure, and I’ve thatened to leave. I hea Gossips is looking fo a nice 18 year old for heir gentlemens club. Then again, I detest lap dancing. Well, I haven’t topped $300 yet a night this year.

BTW: Thats one of Louises porn pics I found.

I talked with the owner, he wanted me to work tonight 8pm to closing. This is a big opportunity some girls collect as much as $500 in that slot (I’ll be happy with $300). Cross your fingers I do well. I’ll deal with the pricks in my own way.

With the Holidays approaching, and the harassment of patrons from he strip club, Ive decided to put the Runwy on hold. I didn’t know men could be so ersistent, horny, and creepy. Apparently someone let out some information on me. I hav ecievd cell phone calls, and some have braved coming to house, and stalking me. It’s hard enough to keep this a secret, and with the club owner constantly calling every other day, I’ve caved in a few times and did him a favor (3 nights so ar, and thy were shitty nights for tip). I’m now working minimum wage at a department store. All my shopping has been done (3 eeks ago of course). My synopsis is, walking the runway is not the wy to get into the porn biz. Meanwhile, I recieved 4 offers frm magazines. Teenz magazine wants a phto shoot on Jan 18th, I’ll eep you all informed.

Still waiting for a reply from the proofs I sent the magazines. Meanwhile, I’m broke, and desperate for cash.
So Thursday I talked to a friend I know about dancing at the topless bar she works at. Th owner gave me two dates Nov 11, 12, starting at 12:00 noon.

I worked both days(I was 45 minutes late Friday though). I made $116 friday, and $165 Saturday. All in all, it was kinda fun, but I hate lap dancing, as well as eing fondeled by old men (the “you remind my of my grandchild” shit is kind of fucked up to say to a dancer). Anyways, they want me to work tomorrow night, they said I will probably make alt more cash. I’m still thinking about it.

Well ‘ve put this endeavor on the backburner. Apparently my education, is far more important.

I’ve sent several pictures into magazines (FOX, teenz, Hustler, club to name a few). All wrote, e-mailed, call, and pestered me back LOL. Netherless, they want the impossible, to give up school, and give my life to the business. Maybe I should think this out before I commit.

Since this afternoons confrontation of the images I sent to Gallery for the Girl Next Door contest, I wonder should I give it another try. Maybe a Amatuer mag. I’ll discuss it with Jaclyn, I think she would be supportive. Then again, she might not want to share me with the prison population LOL.