Go to a professional marriage counsler with my husband

Still doing this. It will take a while to fix everything. HOping we can fix everything! Hoping hubby will own up to some of his issues. Feeling better about things between us only because I know there are people out there with alot worse. Things for me are not that bad. My life is not that bad. Ive been with my husband since we were teenagers. We havent divorced. We have healthy kids and our lives are fairly calm considering what I’ve recently seen. I saw an old friend the yesterday and realized her life is a mess. I have an amazily,boring, life! lol

So we’ve been going for almost 2 mnths and while I don’t see things happening as fast as I’d like I do see some progress. .I know that I probably hinder some progress but I’m trying..We’ve learned alot of new techniques and identified alot of the core issues. I still feel progress is being made. I had considered moving to the church where we’ve been going for counseling but I feel it’s a little smaller then I’d like and I do love my church.I’d kinda of lked to be involved in both but I don’t think they are the kind of church that likes that..So I think I’ll be sticking to where we are at..The only thing I wish I church had that I feel I am lacking is a more lively worship service..I think I can find more of what I am looking for where we are at now..I just wish the babies would go to there class AND I could find a place that I can help in my church now. I love the fact that we are not judgemental at our church now.

Went to our first appt. last week..Due to the fact that Winfred had to work I had to go by myself. That was ok. Winfred probably wont be able to go for a couple of weeks but at least we are getting started. I know that this must be done for the sake of our family. We’ve tried for 18 years to get things right, and while we have come a long way, I know we are not anywhere close to where we need to be..If we don’t fix our promblems we will get a divorce. NICE THOUGHT but it’s true..Even the licensed counsler told me that. I feel that this is a turning point in our relationship. I really do! I’m so ready to have a normal relationship. Like I said we keep trying but we aren’t there and we keep having promblems. Soooo…HERE WE GO! I refuse to fail at this marriage..I want to break the generational curses that we are bound by..While I know I have always tried harder then the hubby he has come a long way…We both are at our breaking point and we are both ready to fix things once and for all..So that’s why this counsler is so great. She is a christian counsler..