Be happy everyday

I need to stay away from the news! : ( I actually tried for a while, but then I had this whole, “is ignorance really bliss?” debate with myself. I have this horrible problem of reading things and getting really upset about them. I’m not really one of those people that can just read something and think, that’s awful, and then go about my business. I end up not sleeping, talking about it with my friends (who although are happy I am so caring, I think are also frustrated that I get so upset) There was something on CBC about these grandparent who basically killed their grandson…It just makes me want to throw up! I wish I was one of those people who could get angry…I just cry and feel helpless. I hate feeling helpless. A few years ago I started to volunteer…that helped a lot. I kind of felt like at least I was doing some small good in the world. When I moved though I decided not to start again because I knew I would be moving again, and I hate getting attached to people and then feel like I am letting them down when I go. Hopefully after the next move.

So I am trying to be happy everyday right? Well today I was feeling a little down and decided that a nice greasy meal would help cheer me up. So I decided to go to Kentucky Fried Chicken (actually the one near me is a still a Scott’s Chicken Villa if it makes it any better). I know that some people may be judging me right now, thinking that I am horrible for going there…well I am too! I know its terrible for me, and that KFC are not the nicest corporation…but today I needed grease and it’s the only fast food place within a 12 block radius (every other store is organic this, and healthy that!) After I ordered my food I decided to ask (just for curiousity sake) how long the gravy from there lasts, and if it would be okay after a month. I have this small problem with not really understanding expiry dates. Not that I can’t read, but that in my mind nothing should expire sooner than two weeks old. The exception to this is sushi, which after a rather unpleasant experience I learned my lesson. Part of the problem is the cast iron stomach I have developed from living with my father who doesn’t believe in expiry dates period. I know this because he once feed me a two month old porkchop (I was home from school and unaware of the length of time that the meat had been kicking around and because I don’t really have a sense of smell didn’t realize there was a rather smelly odour coming from it while it was re-heating) without giving it a second thought until after I had developed the worst case of food poisoning ever. Anyway so I asked when the gravy expires and the cooks told me 1-3 days tops. I think they must of thought that I didn’t believe them and that I was going to go home and eat month old gravy (hey I really wasn’t!) because they gave me a little container of gravy. I tried to pay them for it, but they would let me and hadn’t stopped laughing even when I was leaving…

I live in an icebox…and when it warms up for three seconds it rains….all day…just to freeze all over everything at night. How can someone keep a positive attitude when they live in an icebox!!!!? : ( It’s impossible I tell you! Boo Icebox!

I keep a picture of my sisters and I as a screen saver at work. Thinking of my sisters always makes me happy!

I have been having some problems with this one lately. Its just so cold out. When it is cold out I don’t want to do anything. So then I just sit around feeling very unhealthy for not being more active. I need to move to a country where they don’t have winter. Actually I would settle to move back to Toronto where at least it is about 10 degrees warmer than Ottawa! Boo!