Quit Smoking

Well technically I quit on Monday but I’ve cheated a few times at this point. I do great during the day when I’m at work or even at home. The problem is when we are drinking, I just have to smoke. I think I’m going to re-work this goal to only smoke when I’m drinking and then work on cutting that back once I can handle it instead of just going completely cold turkey.

Ok, this still sucks! I’m on day two and I know it’s a bit easier than day one but I’m still one hell of a grumpy person! I flipped out because I couldn’t find the newspaper this morning, my poor dog got screamed at again for licking his foot for too long. I really feel like I just want to rip my hair out and scream, but I know it’s not going to help. The worst is when I actually let myself eat something (I swear I want to snack all the time to help fight the cravings). I get the worst urges to smoke right when I’m finished eating.

I’ve been awake for about 5 hours and I’m entirely miserable. I have been bitchy, grumpy and generally just need to be avoided at this point. I even got annoyed at my dog for breathing too loudly! Seriously, I hate my life right now but I hope that I can stick to it and that this will be worth it.

My goal is to allow myself to spend $20 – $25 for each pay check that I receive and still am not smoking. That way I can at least reward myself with something fun and nice twice a month to keep myself motivated and encouraged not to spend my money smoking and use it for better things.

I finally quit about a month ago after smoking for about ten years. I still can’t believe how much better I feel every day. I’ve also started noticing that I can breathe better when I’m walking around town and even when I’m excercising. It’s so hard to do but it’s totally worth it! Good luck to everyone who is trying.