get a job

I’ve been struggling with this goal for about a year now, but to be honest half of that time I wasn’t particularly trying! It was supposed to be completed by the time I got back into education again; how that’s going to happen I don’t know?!I’ve got a week so..not really very likely :S
I have a problem which is hard to explain, which in turn, is pretty frustrating but I try to lead a normal life as much as possible. It’s a viscious cycle; I go to bed late due to my ‘undiagnosed’ illness(have trouble breathing when lye down at night, partly scared)wake up beyond 1 in the afternoon and so on. What job is going to take someone who can’t always keep up with the pace because they’re exhausted from the night before?...exactly! Maybe I should try to find an evening job, but then there’s the issue with me starting KIAD and finding the time to fit everything into my hectic schedule…ahhh this is too much I want to cry!!

Since my last entry I’ve contacted 3 jobs, all of which have got back to me. It sucks because everytime time they ask me to attend an interview I freeze up and make some lame excuse about why I can’t get there etc. I’m having constant money troubles/worries and in need of a job as soon as possible :( I get so frustrated with myself sometimes because I want one terribly, but as I feel like utter crap most days(my tiredness is unpredictable)it’s hard to know which hours to pick. I want to be at my best, but it looks like I have no choice but to take whatever comes my way and stop worrying about telephone calls and interviews. If it’s one thing I’ve learnt, things don’t just land in your lap; you have to put yourself out there to make things happen-worrying doesn’t get you anywhere :S

I’m not sure if it’s just me being picky but I can’t seem to find a job I’m happy with that fits in with the hours I would like….

I’m not too sure if I even want a job considering my circumstances but one thing I do know is I need the money!!Don’t you just hate when people try to get on your back and force you to do things you’re not comfortable with, without even taking you into consideration!

well I suppose I’ll give the job hunting a go anyway, otherwise I guess signing on might have to be the way to go.